everything just seems so pointless now.. Jason was the reason i got up in the morning.. and now he's gone..I miss him soo much.. losing Jason.. is like losing my heart.. it hurts so much..
Time will heal your pain Tierayn. I lost my best friend of 26 years last year and also lost my dad when I was 21, so I know what you're going through. I think most of us has lost a loved one at one time or another and we truly do understand the pain involved. We're here for you as everyone here was there for me when I lost my precious friend.
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uhh.. his dad told me a lot of stuff about Jason today.. and i think he had a lot of weight on his shoulders.. he said Jason worried about me a lot.. and he just wanted me to be happy.. .. i miss him a lot....He was the only one in my life who ever ment anything to me. The only one who was ever there for me when i needed him. . we went through so much together.. I dunno what i'm gonna do..
Just take one day at a time Tierayn.
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I feel so alone without Jason around.. I miss him soo much.. I just want him to be here with me again..I want him to take me in his arms, for only a minute and tell me it's gonna be ok..
It WILL be okay. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but some day. I know it sounds cliché to say, but getting through this will make you a stronger person. One day you will look back and marvel at your ability to get through this time in your life.
Do what you need to do to get through it. You mentioned feeling alone in all of this. If you try reaching out, you may be surprised that those you least expect to comfort you would do just that.
I come zooming in here as a stern older person, saying, alone is not the worst place to be. Please start to pay attention to the fact that you are fine and good as yourself. Consider liking yourself, whether or not your present friends do. Trust me, it will help you in life to find 'yourself' a pal, start an interesting conversation.
Hey Tierayn, i know i haven't been an active member in ur postings, but i have been reading them. I hope your ok, u haven't written in awhile, I can't imagine the pain your going through, but remember that the people here care about what happens to you, and are always here to listen. Again i hope ur doing ok.
Things aren't going that well.. it's been pure hell trying to accept that Jason's gone.. I never dreamed that i'd ever have to talk at my bf's funeral..
... I miss him .. I think about him all the time.. It seems like i've sunk right back into the hole that he helped me get out of..
I love Jason so much.. it seemed like we were made for each other.. we did everything together and now it's like my life is a puzzle.. it can't be completed because some of the pieces are missing.... I feel so alone and lost in the world.
Every day i wake up with this little ray of hope in my heart that it's all a dream.. and that any minute the phone's gonna ring and he's gonna tell me he loves me.. for a split second everything feels ok and then I realize what's happened and that he's gone. It's like finding out for the first time that the person you love most in the world is dead all over again.
I went to my doctor again today.. I wanted something to help me sleep at night.. when i go to bed all i can think about is Jason. . We talked about what's been going on the past year.. as far as depression and suicide.. and he diagnosed me with Clinical Depression.. I have to take anti-depressants now.. and see some other doctor or something who deals with this ****..
Hang in there Tierayn.
I'll be thinking of you (((Hug))).
thanks.. you guys have helped me through a lot.. I'll never forget it..
