Depression Sux

thanks, party was awsome, the hangover the next day is a different story. as for keeping up my look. I've got a tattoo, my lip done thee times, a loop in the middle, and balls on both sides. I've got my tongue done, my ears, my bellybutton, and now i have my eyebrow done twice. My parents don't really care what i get pierced as long as i tell them. I'm goin for the goth/punk kinda look. .. today wasn't bad i guess. still feelin low, but i'm keepin myself busy and still tryin to get back in the swing of things.

Tierayn

Keep it up, Tierayn!

Lookin good T ;-)

When you do die, can I have the mining rights?

well i wasn't really planning on dying any time soon.

Ya might have cause to be nervous if your freinds start taking an interest in the scrap metal market.

thanks.... just what i wanted to hear.

and don't consider a career as a cat burglar while wearing that stuff!

Now that's music to my ears ;-)

thanks. I'd have to say out of everything that i have done my tongue hurt the most. it didn't hurt when i got it done just sorta burned but after it hurt like hell. i talked like i was a dumbass for a while. I'm trying to have a "positive" outlook on things.

You're gutsier than me, Tierayn. I shudder at the thought of just biting my tongue ... that hurts like hell. I can't imagine shoving hardware through it. I'll admit to having a couple tattoos, but believe me, I'll never be that young, or that drunk, again

well once when i got like loaded i almost got myself pregnant. haha i learnt my lesson after that. it's not that bad at all when you're getting your tongue done. but after you get it done is when you start to feel it. it hurts like a bitch. your tongue swells up it's really bad for like the first week and a bit. and you sound so stupid when you try to talk. my lip didn't hurt that much when i got it done.. it's only when the needle goes through the last bit of skin that it starts to hurt. the top part of my ear hurt more then my belly button did. my tattoo wasn't bad at all, neither was my eyebrow. i'm not gutsie i'm just a dumbass lol. all together i've got 17 piercings and a tattoo. lol i gotta admit i wasn't really thinking when i got them but i'm happy i did.

Cool if it works for ya ... but i' think you prolly oughtta be real carteful if the weather looks like lightning is gonna be happenin'

Good point Timber, LOL!

lol that's what all my friends say. i'm gonna end up goin outside and gettin fried by lightning
sorry can't talk long, home from school sick. i wish somebody could cut off my head from my ankels up cuz i feel like ****.

Wilso i just wanted to say thank you, it was the post that you had started that made me write mine. I had done an internet search on depression and your post had come up. I had read a couple of the pages from there and realized that people here care and want to help. So i figured why not write mine problem and get it out there. Thank you so much for sharing.

Keep reaching. It's not easy, but help is there. And you also find out that you're not so different from lots of other people.

That's right Sand. We are all only human ;-)

Your comments about the boyfriend remind me of a scene in "Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion". (A REAL hoot of a movie btw!) Janeane Garofalo plays one character who had pined all her life for this one high school boy. She goes to the reunion expecting to see her long lost love. When he finally shows, her comment is "that's ???, what the hell was I thinking!" (Can't remember the guy's name, hence ???) That sort of sums it all up! *L*

I once bit off the very very very very tip of my tongue. (If I stick it out as far as it will go, you can see a slightly irregular tip. Otherwise it isn't obvious.) I was sleeping and it must have been something in my dream that caused me to bite down hard...tip of my tongue was in the way. Not a pleasant means of waking up!

The thing with tongue piercing that bothers me is the potential for cracked teeth and the metal mouth taste experience.

I find it mildly curious that people pierce themselves, 'cause I just don't understand the appeal. I've never had anyone explain it to me in a manner I could understand. I don't even have pierced ears myself. I'm not into jewelry at all which I understand is a betrayal to my gender. *L*

Tierayn: I've just been reading your posts for the first time tonight. Part of the "manic" behaviour you describe could be due to a hormonal imbalance. At your age your hormones are definitely all over the map. As your doctor said, being on the pill may help regulate that aspect. And as everyone here has said, being 14 isn't easy. But it does get better! Just hang in there. It's got to be tough with the loss of loved ones added on top of everything. Suicide may have seemed to you to be the easiest solution but it isn't. What if someone could offer you a glimpse into your future and what you saw was awesome. You would miss out on that. I gather from your later posts that you've rethought the suicide thing. I hope this is so. And as you've seen from posting here, there are a lot of people who are here for you to talk to so please take advantage of that.