Just read all the pages in this thread, so picked up some other details.
I hadn't read the actual post about him bringing over food, but when I did.....
You don't want this man around, he's bothering you, you find him creepy....
but you CALL HIM and thank him for food, telling him how good it was??????
YOU called him.
If this was a thread about how to get a certain man to notice you...that's exactly the advice I would have given...as in...
"wow marty, this guy must really like you to go out of his way to prepare you a plate for Thanksgiving, knowing you're all alone. That's way beyond just being a nice neighbor....I think you should call him and tell him how much you enjoyed the meal, that'll let him know you're interested too! Also, now you've got that plate to return. A perfect opportunity for you to see him again"
Someone said a while back you might be giving subliminal messages that you're interested. Subliminal? Hell You're calling him up to tell him what a swell, considerate guy he is.
Maybe I hit the nail on the head a while back, maybe I didn't. However, for all these pages everyone's been dancing around the issue, and you're too socialized with being "nice" to REALLY talk about what's up.
Ask yourself this, and be brutally honest with your answer....What exactly are you true feelings about this person?
You don't have to tell us, but you owe it to yourself to tell the truth to yourself.
Years back, I went for a year refusing to take a medication that I was told would help me. I had a reason, actually 2 reasons, but I wasn't about to tell anyone what they were, for fear of appearing ridiculous or crazy. My reasons were known only to me, but I felt that even the therapist I was seeing (regarding the same problem I needed the medication for) would inform me that I was being an utter dunce.
One day, I was ready I suppose for the question, and she asked me...What is it exactly that is keeping you from doing this?
I couldn't meet her eyes, looking off to the side, I blurted out exactly what my fears were, adding that I know it didn't make sense, but that's what my fears were.
Of course she didn't mock me. What she said was that what I had just admitted to being my feelings were indeed my feelings, and were valid because they were true to me.
She also said if I decided to take this medication, I would indeed be fearful at first....but I could be afraid and do something, or, be afraid and stay in my very unsatisfactory situation.
Sounds trite I know, but Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway.
I'm really just musing here, but you've said several time now that this person is, you're sure "a perfectly nice man, just trying to be helpful" and other comments like that.
Could be be an obstacle you've constructed to avoid facing what your core concerns are?
I mean, how can you be blunt and "mean" and tell him to leave you alone when "he's perfectly nice and trying to be helpful"?
If I was a fly on the wall when these interactions are going on, would I see him as perfectly nice and helpful?
Or would I see someone who is using your hesitancy to appear rude as a way to further his schemes?
Would he appear perfectly nice to me, or more as someone sleazy?
Would he appear to be helpful to me, or as being pushy and or intrusive to my privacy?
I know you divorced from a difficult situation. Honestly, I don't know the details. But I do know one thing, because I've lived through it myself. A controlling spouse will try to make you feel that you don't even know your own mind, even if you've always known prior to meeting him what is right or wrong for you. The abusive/controlling person will work away at you until you're compliant, because it's the only way to get through the day. You are no longer able to ascertain when something is off, because you've been told you can't trust your judgement.
Your repeating over and over that he's trying to be helpful and nice, etc.....the way he wants to appear to you.....are you trying to believe those surface things are the truth, because you don't believe you can trust your own judgement?
All of the advice you've gotten has essentially been the same. Perhaps you feel like it would be permissable for anyone else to make their feelings known, but not for you, since you know you can't trust your own judgement.
Maybe you feel like you need permission to be someone who can get this jerk away from you.
Marty, you have my permission.