Today, for whatever reason, is pretty bad. i just don't know what to do with myself. perhaps the shock is over and the reality is sinking in. i will miss E so much. I already do. I feel so wounded, like a trapped animal. Comes and goes in waves. I do keep busy, and have hours in a row when I' fine and up. Then I crash for an hour or so. I know, I know, it is normal. It will pass. But it is here now. I wish I could do something with this grief. Transform it into something. Still can't believe it somewhere deep inside.
Shallow people shuck relationships easily. You're cursed/blessed with sensitivity, loyality and a sense of justice--all the uncomfortable virtues.
This too shall pass.
The humidity is a bit oppressive today, it's understandable. Can you take a ride out somewhere? I know there are some closed highways this week, but you can probably head out of the city and South, maybe to lovely Providence for just a completely unjustified and impractical outing. It's a nice little, walkable city. Note: they serve sweet rolls with their Chinese food there. :-D
Hey Dag, the wife and kids are out of town for awhile, isn't it about time for a west coast swing? This week would be especially good for a getaway, what with all those extra blowhards in Boston for the week and all.
;-) thanks, cj. just a bit low on dough right now. but if you'll sponsor me, i will surely come. Providence won't work jes, E lived there for 5 years, I'd go down for the weekends... I am OK again, the wave has passed, but sheesh, that was an ugly one. As a therapy I googled a handsome anthropology professor I always liked. He always looked back when I pass. Perhaps he's divorced... Anyhoo, going to see a Cambridge apartment tonight, I hope it will work out, that would be awesomest.
What happened to Winchester?
It may or may not be too far out.
ok ok
....sorry Dasha....
But seriously...
If you have a car (or are willing to put up with the commuter rail), a change of scene might not be a bad idea.
To a Cantabrigian, Winchester may seem like the boonies, but it's really a very pretty and pleasant town.
Well, the Cambridge place sucked, unfortunately. Too much money for little music. Run down, the two women that live there are 40-something with strange jobs and no life to speak of. I would die there. So, I keep looking. But I am sure that if I don't find something cheap in Cambridge/Somerville, I will be more than glad to stay in Winchester, with people I know and like. I just feel like it would be really grand if I could live with someone my age, where i would feel home enough to hang on weekends and head out for dinner/ drink with the roommate(s) every now and then. I am looking for a littlek - I wish you had weak enough character to ditch your incoming roommate, that would make me very happy. But also evil and that is not a choice. So, tell me about that place in Somerville you saw. Heck, I should stop by tomorrow - I keep running around like crazy. I will. Will call. Am at home -E is in bed, things are 'ok'. he will help looking too. Chivalrous of him...
The Cedar st apt is less than a block from where the bike path crosses Cedar St. Between Broadway and Windsor Streets. I'll try and get a better fix on an exact address.
Sorry I can't be a bitch for you Dasha. It's very tempting though.
Listening with waving flaggons for Dag.
Well, me, what ever you choose I am in your camp.
thanks osso. of course, lk, i wouldn't really want you to kick out the poor new roommate. just daydreaming here. slept a bit more, will call around every apartment with a room for rent in it today. can't wait, ugh. so tired still. can't wait to be home.
