@FOUND SOUL,
Seems got away today..
I saw a pair of tensed eyes . I kept polite and soft and didnt behave in so called revenge. i smiled and threw jokes.
I accepted my fate.. by the way i still wish she keep me as her best friend. she is still my admiration.. yes i am obsessed. but i fear she is uncomfortable of it only.. the fact that people may find it odd. I could have easily gained any good girls with half efforts i have done on her. I am not looking for somebody to be on my bed. if all i want is that i could have found ways to intrude without any sort of sincerity .. but the story is a bit different here.
she likes smiling persons.. and she smiled with my jokes. (the unhealthy me is grilled in side ..but felt so happy for her.. sadly the message i conveyed is that i can be offended and i keep friendly)... likewise she will smile at any jokes...
may be i do not understand and she understands or what even i understand is erroneous
likewise friends especially @FoundSoul
Please dont misunderstand my intentions.. I like this girl who's married- it not my or her fault that she got married. that is a separate issue. (yes at times i fell for her deep but that is the long way i know) but my long run intention still is
i see lot of good things around her. i feel comfortable being with her. I am learning new things from her. asking her advice on all things. she is an active supporter.. she repeats the last word we tell her.. as if t promote us. since we work together i need to find a solution.. to act as a genuine person. and never get grudge over her being friendly with my opponents. it is just easy to ignore her and shine on my own since that is what i am good at.. (this i found lately) and as regards she is considered she is centered and self confident a bit selfish somewhere but very friendly with all of us..
isnt there anybody? who knows how to carry on with a broken heart? and be friendly with a person?
and another part of the story why should i spend my time and energy behind such a small thing?.. i could have flirt with the other girls around. why i kept them away was not to make her painful.. i am sure if i ignore her she will end up being nothing (?) compared to me.. i am not proud to say that but feels the sympathy. i am pretty sure if i start talking with at least one girl the woman in her will come out. nobody will like to see friends in that way for sure..
so please nobody advice me on seducing or flirting with her.. Just show me how to be a perfect man to accept it
please.. please i mean it