trying2learn
 
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Reply Fri 16 Sep, 2011 12:42 am
@Roberta,
Thank you Roberta and others who read, yet say nothing.

My dad taught us not to give up and sometimes that is exactly what I want to do. I want to run away and not come back ever. Then reality sets in and I know that is not the answer. I can't or will not run away from reality or any problem that I feel is worth fighting for.

My sister is worth fighting for, even if I don't know what to fight against. That is what angers me. The doctors, who I highly respect, can't find the source and the technology of the machines can't either. It is so frustrating because I do my best under pressure when there is a solution. I am not finding a solution at this time.
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Reply Fri 16 Sep, 2011 02:24 am
Dad,
I know you would be proud of me because I am right now. I was sleeping only to be woken up by my FR, who I didn't even know was home, telling me he had to go and the computer wasn't working. He quickly asked me to fix it, omg over 6 hours later and no help, I did fix it. Even if I couldn't fix it, no big deal. Almost everything on my computer is in my head, call it memory Smile
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Thu 22 Sep, 2011 06:51 am
Dad,
When I was in ICU, I woke up with a horrible thought. It was about this site. It was about changing places and changing faces. Masks, so I ripped mine off.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Mon 26 Sep, 2011 10:53 pm
To my dad,
Nothing on the internet is private. I know and wasn't looking for, most of the members real names and addresses. I didn't mean to find this info. At the time, I was looking for and researching animals. If anyone that is a regular member on this site reads this, I won't reveal who you are and where you live. I will respect your privacy as you do mine because I know many of you know my real name.......night.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Thu 6 Oct, 2011 01:42 am
Dad,
I am at my wits end. My sister, your daughter, is so sick and I can't help her. I am so tired of crying and seeing her in pain. I just don't know what to do. She is so scared and so am I. I just wish life wouldn't be so painful
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Sat 15 Oct, 2011 03:39 am
Dad,
She cannot survive her illness. I can only hope she finds peace in knowing that I care. I have done all I am capable of doing and I can't fix it and that makes me feel helpless. No regrets though.
Roberta
 
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Reply Sat 15 Oct, 2011 11:56 am
@trying2learn,
Sad for you, t2l.
trying2learn
 
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Reply Sat 15 Oct, 2011 10:08 pm
@Roberta,
You might not understand what I am writing,, nobody hamsterpad = smile
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Wed 19 Oct, 2011 10:47 pm
@Roberta,
Why are you sad?? I am not sad.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Mon 24 Oct, 2011 11:04 am
Dad I do have my own agenda and motives. It is too bad that others can't see it in a positive way. I know you always did. I hope everyone on this site has a healthy and long life. I won't be back thanks to RH and others that lie and just see what they want to see. No regrets....
trying2learn
 
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Reply Sat 31 Dec, 2011 01:39 am
My heart is breaking. My sister is dying and there is nothing I can do to help her.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Sun 19 Feb, 2012 12:25 am
@trying2learn,
I just had to come back to this site and no agenda this time.
roger
 
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Reply Sun 19 Feb, 2012 12:40 am
@trying2learn,
Stay as long as you like. You can live here, if you want.
trying2learn
 
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Reply Sun 19 Feb, 2012 01:23 am
@roger,
Thank you rat (I mean that in a good way). This site means so much to me because of my dad and the members who I care about.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Sun 19 Feb, 2012 11:28 pm
I come back here when I feel lost and alone. It really sucks to feel that way. I so miss my dad. A part of me died when he died. My dad was so kind.
roger
 
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Reply Mon 20 Feb, 2012 01:41 am
@trying2learn,
I've never felt bad about being a rat, but kind of surprised anyone remembers. I'm glad we're here when you feel like talking.
trying2learn
 
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Reply Fri 24 Feb, 2012 12:57 pm
@roger,
Thank you
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Fri 24 Feb, 2012 01:18 pm
@roger,
Thank you again and I can't come back here anymore. I wish you and others happiness and health.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Tue 28 Feb, 2012 02:24 pm
I didn't think I would ever come back. Dad I had a horrible dream about the plane. So many people hurt and scared.
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trying2learn
 
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Reply Mon 19 Mar, 2012 02:08 am
Dad I feel sick, really sick. I don't know why or what is wrong. My whole body hurts. I wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I don't mean this in a bad way. I just want the pain to go away.
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