In memory of my dad

Thank you dad for serving and sharing some of your war experiences with me. I will always cherish them.

One day I want to write what my parents told me about their experiences during WWII. My mom was a teenager in Germany and my dad was a teenager in the United States Military.
I don't think my mom would want me to write on the internet some of the things she told me about the war. So, it will have to wait. To me it is history and it is interesting because it dealt with Germany, Russia & the United States.

My sister did well during her 3rd surgery. The part that sucks is she has cancer again. This is the 4th cancer now. My mom doesn't know that my sister has cancer again.

My sister asked me if she was going to die from the cancer. It's hard sometimes to find the right thing to say. Since I have been taking her to appts. and procedures, I am learning more about cancer than I ever cared to learn.

I can't imagine life without my sister. It saddens me to see her go through so much. Hopefully this cancer can be stopped. At times like these, I am glad my dad isn't here to know what is happening.

Dad,
So many things have happened since you died. Some good and some bad. I still miss you every day. What made me smile yesterday was when the car started and the song on the radio was oh what a night. Actually I laughed. It was quite a night.
btw thank you to the site owners who let me write on here, it has helped me deal with the loss of my dad.

Dad,
I feel so torn. Wishing you were here to help me make a decision.

I'm sorry I just can't bring myself to go to the cemetery. You aren't there.

just talking to myself....regarding my sister. What is missing, what am I not asking. Dad I could really use your help right now.

Dad,
I woke up and knew what it was I was not asking. It was like finding the piece to a missing puzzle. Spoke to the docs today and it is okay. Please I am doing all I can to keep her spirits up. She can't lose hope. She is tired, her husband is tired and I am tired. Never underestimate the brain. I lost you and don't want to lose her and yes I know that is selfish. Right now I don't care that I am being selfish!

My God....i miss my dad condolence also to you.....huhuhuhu

I am sorry that you lost your dad.

I still think about my dad, not with sadness, with a smile. He was a good man. So kind....

Dad this weekend was really tough on me because I went through your personal belongings as well as mom's. I wrote everything down (inventoried it all) and took pics. We packed it all up and put it all in storage.

The history I wrote about earlier, my mom being German, met Hitler. My mom unknowingly had ties to Russia. What a mess considering my dad was in the Army. That meant Germany, Russia and the United States all got involved. Looking back I can laugh, yet it wasn't funny at the time if you can imagine 3 govts. in times of war and peace.

Glad you can smile, t2l. I smile when I remember my father too.

I truly smile when I think of my dad.

I spoke with my brothers about my dad's war items. They said no
Since one of my brothers had my dad's other war items, it hurt me to tell him I had the helmet. He had no idea my dad gave it to me. As much as it hurt, I gave it to him and wondered if I did the right thing. I can only hope I did the right thing.

Dad,
I still think of you and what a great person you were. Tears are running down right now because I miss you. I will always miss you because I couldn't ask for a better dad. Ditto misses you too..

OMG. Read this - crying with you. I now walk in your shoes.

((((trying2learn))))

Stay strong, girl.

Thank you JustBrooke. I miss my dad so much. Time helps except the pain never goes away.

Right now thinking of my dad is so hard and I am doing my best not to cry. I really miss him. He was so kind and such a good man. I could not ask for a better dad. Yes, I am crying thinking of him which means I need to log off my computer.

Just a reminder, t2l.

Thank you and when I started to tear up, I did have a smile on my face. I didn't want my tears to get my keyboard wet. I know that must sound stupid or selfish, I am just being me = honest (at least when I can be without hurting anyone)

I had to watch my dad die, do I have to watch my sister die too?? This is so unfair and yes life is unfair, yet I don't have to like it!!!! Oh how I wish I could trade places with her, she did nothing wrong.
Dad, I really need your help right now.

t2l, I'm very sorry to hear this. Very sorry. But trading places doesn't happen, and disease and death have nothing to do with "deserving." They just happen.

All you can do it be there for your sister. I have a feeling you're doing that. She knows she's loved.