look at the link to another similar thread
I'm really glad that I bumped into your thread. I truly believe that it was worth my time...even coming back to it again. You definitely are growing and learning and show the signs of 'getting it!
IsitOK check out this link to a similar thread about pc privacy and passwords:
http://www.able2know.com/forums/viewtopic.php?t=95388&start=0
At the risk of being somewhat repetitious, here are some of my thoughts:
One warning: You do something that many of us do (vacillate and then deflect criticism) at times when we're in a tight spot. It's hard on the ego to expose your emotions and see your own growing edge exposed like this. Please don't think that the root of this password issue is mainly or even a lot about your curiosity. Trust is at the core.
I feel from reading that the root goes beyond insatiable curiosity. We all are a curious about our mates...and their habits. It's OK to be curious ...even intensely curious, but with your family history this curiosity exists to protect your vulnerability. It's very scarey to be that vulnerable. It's not bad in itself...and it doesn't make you evil. Some of us, have been there.
I recall a time in my mid-20s...I was so in love with someone, that I went so far as to follow her when I knew she was seeing the other guy. I did nothing bad...but I caught myself. That never happened again with anyone. I made myself realize that I was giving up far too much of myself when I let myself be consumed with my love interest. Same thing goes with a marriage. As we mature we try to see our shortcomings, embrace them. We still make mistakes but we grow and learn to trust more.
Good luck and know that loving someone that much can soon be a safer place for you.