I've had that feeling for a while now ... <nods>
I just dont know what to do.
And I havent got a clue how any of this measures up to ... what other people would consider - normal? Whether its in the, well nimh such is life you'd better just suck it up, we all have to, so stop whining already category or in the, thats just outrageous / horrible category.
Eg, got the official letter from the LIMH today, I'm so glad I called yesterday. If I'd just gotten this letter by itself I would have been so panicked. All it says is, I regret to inform you that your therapist will be absent for a considerable time because of illness, this means that your treatment has to be suspended for an indefinite time. As soon as there's any more clarity about the estimated length of this threapy pause I'll inform you. Oh, and if any of this should bring you into trouble you can contact us. Well, what do you ******* expect? No, I'm fine, that's great, yeah?
<rereads yesterday's post> I don't know, I think I'm just being crazy. <frowns>
Everything all right, nimh?
nimh - where you at? I recently have gotten a new cyberfriend that is a student there. (eindhoven)
Husker
I'm in Utrecht, middle of the country
Letty
Err, no, not really ...
but that was probly already clear from that long post just above
Ever get the feeling that someone is lying to you? I have that feeling today. I don't know what to do. I care deeply about this person and am afraid that this feeling is more than just a feeling. It's nothing big. The lie isn't life changing or damaging. But any lie bruises trust and I don't want that trust to be bruised. What to do what to do.....I will just have to ask. **finding a phone....**
Dear Diary
Paradise lost. We have spent six months remodeling a house on two beautifull acres filled with flower gardens bordered by a cloudforest reserve at 2000 meters. The house is gorgeous and the surrounding trees are filled with Scarlet-fronted Parakeets and Crimson-rumped Toucans and I've counted eleven hummingbird species. Orquids and bromelias cling to the trees the latter harboring at least a couple of species of poison arrow frog. The other day we found out through a reliable grapevine that a group in the area is waiting for us to move in so they can come in the night to kidnap us or me and sell me the gringo to the FARC guerrilla faction. I should have seen it coming. I'm heartbroken but no amount of natural beaty is worth the risk. The house goes up for sale next week.
My God, Pitter. I'm stunned. Sounds like a scene from a bad movie.
Unfortunatley it's "life in Colombia" and I've about had it. There was a news article in El Pais the local paper a few weeks ago in which four of these guys tried to kidnap a wealthy sixty seven year old Lebonese sugar baron (boyfriend of the maid and some friends). The wife was upstairs and when she heard the scuffle she came down with a submachine gun in one and and a pistol in the other firing rounds over their heads. That did the trick and they took off with out him. They were caught and admitted the plan was to sell him to the guerrilla. His house is fifteen minutes away from mine. I talked to a painter who worked in that house and he said they had arms everywhere even grenades! I can do that too, it's perfectly legal but that's not my idea of retirement.
Nor, mine, Pitter. Get the hell outta there, buddy.
I'm sorry to hear this, Pitter.
Pitter, I love your writings, but it ain't worth losing ya.
Thanks Mapleleaf and I don't want to get lost either.
Oh man. Sorry, Pitter. Glad you have this grapevine anyway.
That's all I have to say today. I am a basket case. I woke up, pattered around the house for about 10 minutes and burst into tears. I cried through my shower. I cried combing my hair. I cried getting dressed. I cried starting my car. I cried getting my afternoon snack to take to work ready. Finally, I had to stop crying because I had to drive to work. I look just great today.
I've been through what you're going through...the paranoia and feelings of helplesness. I had to get professional help. I hope you've started the ball rolling Kristie...it hurts me to see you hurt.
thanks...I feel just awful today. The worst I've felt in a long time. I could probably fill an entire page of a thread with stuff today.
I am going to see my doctor soon. I want to get a log started though, so I have something to go on. So a few more weeks....I've gone this long so another few won't kill me.
As an A2K friend I say wrong! The logs are all over these threads. Make an appointment today...right now. It'll be a few weeks til you're seen anyways and you can have the log done by then. Seeking help is not a sign of wekness sweetie, it's a sign of strength.
panzade wrote:As an A2K friend I say wrong! The logs are all over these threads. Make an appointment today...right now. It'll be a few weeks til you're seen anyways and you can have the log done by then. Seeking help is not a sign of wekness sweetie, it's a sign of strength.
ok, ok....I suppose you are right. My husband would probably kiss you right now. I don't know how much more he can take. :wink:
