What's an honest man to do, really?

What's an honest man to do, really?

I took these women out to dinner once, to a nice place in the city.
One was a model and the other a receptionist. I like watching two
women interact, because they let their guard down and then their true
personality comes out. Sooner or later women always get around to
talking about sex, and it turned out they were both really interested
to try a professional. Just to see what a difference that makes, in
quality, substance and technique. They got pretty excited about it anyways.

Perhaps I'm a little too considerate and polite, or eager to learn
about what women really like, but as a gentleman I went along.

We went to a few clubs and saw some shows with both men and women,
and the flashlights and dildos seemed kind of silly. They talked to
a few guys and picked one they liked. We went to the back room together.

It was a little awkward for me as a straight guy, because I felt a
responsibility to check him out and make sure everything was safe for
them. He seemed clean, healthy, and respectful. I talked with
him a bit. They said his cologne was really nice, so very discretely I
sniffed the air and wondered "Vanilla... What the hell?"

So they did a little of this and a little of that, and then the other thing
too. Once they really got started, it got emotionally too complicated
for me to watch, and I had to go wait outside. I have too many dreams
waiting to be fulfilled. I had to get some air.

Also, since I was paying for the evening and being the gentleman about it,
I didn't want my dates to feel pressured later on. If I bought them dinner,
drinks and entertainment too, they should be free to enjoy the evening
for what it is, without that subtle "Well I paid all that money for him
to do you, so don't you owe me a little something, huh?". I hate it when
women complain about the pressure to have sex, because I respect the
relationship and our time together a lot more than that.

So we just had a nice evening and that was all.

It was only our third date, and I wasn't quite ready to go much further
than that, anyways. If they respect me as an individual, they would
understand it takes time to get to know somebody, to establish trust and
commitment before our relationship becomes more intimate on an emotional
and physical level.

But I'm a feminist though, and if my dates want to have sex with someone
so soon, then that's what we should do. My greatest thrill in life is to
give people pleasure! I love it when folks smile so big and say thank you!
I really do. Maybe this was too much, too soon in our relationship, but
they seemed like mature, responsible women who could be clear about things.

And I did actually learn a lot about their tastes and preferences. One of them
liked one thing, and another liked something else. It was a good opportunity to
communicate our fantasies, hopes and dreams, and the things that make us human.
Every woman is different, like no two roses are the same. Like no two
ponds in the mountains, or clouds in the sky. You have to ask and listen,
then just sit back and appreciate.

You have to love every molecule of their being, or you're not really alive.

As a feminist, I challenge any woman out there to pay for such an evening,
if they are taking a man out on a date. Equality, huh? Hopefully. Someday.

Both women were very good looking, but it turned out, not really relationship
material. One of the women was just a player, kind of self-centered and arrogant,
and didn't stick around much. She had a lot of growing up to do.
But the other one developed into a good friendship for a while. We spent some
time together, talking about family and life, and shared some really good moments.
Until she got a new job across the state, got bigger boobs, and then like so
many people she was gone.

I don't know anyone who sticks around for the really good stuff. Sometimes it
takes me years to find a relationship, someone who's open and honestly
ready for the intimacy of a real partner and true companion. It's a very special
woman who even has the time to hang out and really talk, without all those silly
games! I don't know. Everybody's different I guess.

What would you do if your date wanted to have sex?
Do you think it's right to date two women at the same time?

I'd still like to find a real woman someday. Do you have any advice?
Just curious I guess.