BorisKitten wrote:CL, I'm so delighted to see you happy!
Heck, you're not going to do anything other than try your best to relax and have fun.
When I met my Fuzzband 12 years ago I went (after about 6 months of dating) head-over-heels about him. I absolutely Adored him and was really disturbed by my own feelings... I was so frightened!
To counteract this, I told myself something that helped A LOT... if it worked out with us, I would have The Rest of My Natural Life to spend with him.
Maybe it would help to tell yourself the same thing? Think of all the happy years ahead... the endless trips to Wal-Mart, the laundry, doing the dishes together, just sitting together and saying nothing. Hopefully this will help a bit!
Love to you!
I have thought about that actually, and that is what scares me... I have never been able to picture myself with a guy in any part of the future... EVER... It's crazy.... I have always lived in present day, I usually won't even make plans a month in advance with someone because I think it is way to early to tell if I am even going to be talking to this person ever again... even if it is my best friend
I have a fear of commitment... I always dettach myself, but there is just something about this guy.. I don't know what...
I am just afraid that I am going to let myself get attached and end up wanting too much from him, so I am trying to distance myself from my feelings, which I am usually really good at, but for some reason I can't do that with him
We already have plans for the weeknd after this one.... too me that is sadly a big deal.. I never make plans that far in advance, people usually just pop in and out of my life...
We talked sooo much last night.... found out I wasn't exactly his type though, looks wise that is... he likes really skinny girls... and I am average.. I am not a big girl.. I weigh about 145 lbs. right now (but I have a large chest also... not that you needed to know that).... but personality wise we click soooo much...
For example I was telling him how I HATE heights and roller coasters and I was waiting for him to say, O.. u hate roller coasters, I love them... blah blah, but instead he said he hates heights also and roller coasters.. he ahtes the feeling of falling like me... and he goes on to tell me how he could never sky dive (neither could I) but he wants to hang glide.. which is what Iwas talking to me friend about the other day... how I would love to hang glide to get over my fears but u could never get me to jump out of a plane....he tooks the words right out of my mouth
Ok I am done rambling