@edgarblythe,
You're desperate because you fight alone. Try and build rapport with like-minded people, and your despair might well change into hope.
It's not like the world was ever perfect, or life was ever just... You long for the 50's but those were the days when black people had to use separate restaurants and bars, seat at the back of buses, and get lynched whenever one dared to **** a white woman... Happy times indeed.