@Linkat,
wow, I somehow missed this thread, and also the sad news about your dad -
I am so sorry for your loss, Linkat.
Well, one door closes and several others open up. You always strike me as someone very competent in your job and I am certain that you'll have quite a few offers in no time. Yes, it's nerve wrecking now, but in the long run, I am certain you'll do much better than now. Have some faith in yourself.
I'd be a bit apprehensive of applying for a job internally - your current employer seems to re-organize quite often and who knows if you aren't in the same position 2 years from now - faced with a move to TX.