@izzythepush,
Now as far as seeing drones accidentally killing a child I would think my reaction would be to kill the foreign killers who are turning my country into a battle field for their own sick reasons.
Now as far as making some grand gesture in my 20s and 30s to give my life meaning you got to be kidding me.
I was a fully employ and happy engineer doing the work I love and that I aim for since my early childhood.
Becoming a mass killer would not have appeal to me at all.
My only weakness might have been the intellectual challenge of creating weapons systems far more advances then a suicide belt out of non-military hardware and doing it cheaply.
Before 911 my wife and I took a tour of Hoover Dam and our guide gave some brief comments on the precautions the government took to protected the dam during WW2.
I begin to list off the ways I would had mounted an attack on the dam even giving special credit to the method you Brits used in attacking the Rhine river dams. Those rotating skip bombs were very ingenious indeed.
My wife told me to shut up at once however…………..
Still all in all even for the joy of solving such engineering problems I do not see myself becoming a mass murderer.