It is pretty hard to know who you are and what you want when you are suffering through depression
Every single person that walks this planet has or/and will suffer from depression in their life. ****, life is full of negatives, we can't live unless we work our asses off, the World today is different than it was in your / our grandparents and their days. It takes a whole lot of strength and often time out, to jump that hurdle and there are hurdles to jump every single day with or without depression... Depression means "you can feel" ....
What inspires me is people can help other people, regardless of what they are personally going through. And, they do.
If people toughen up to the extent of never having feelings, never showing feelings, are they not "hiding" Hawk, would it not still be eating at them inside? Does it not make it impossible to give ? Because you don't have feelings... I'd rather have a whole lot of feelings, give, love, get hurt, feel down and out, jump the hurdle, find ways to feel free, happy and re-find myself from being lost for that period of time, than to shut down like a robot..
I remember walking out of my marriage, pretty low.. Down, depressed, nothing ... But, I can tell you, the reason why I walked was because I KNEW who I was, I knew what I wanted and I knew what I deserved... I failed, but I failed after giving 100% first even if the other person did not deserve it.. 7 years... of crap. Therefore I didn't fail, he did.
But, you are wrong, because from that knowledge, I got out of it, left, grew, and knew even more who I was, what I wanted, deserved, expected and would not accept and ****, I still know who I am, what I want and deserve and am happy... Doesn't mean I don't get stressed, feel down, get depressed but then like ((Joe)), I dream, I write, become creative, walk, feel at peace, plant plants, work my butt of, find the solution, answer and smile.... Life is a roller coaster... I choose to feel and so do the majority of people.
And, there is nothing wrong with getting depressed, we are friggen human, and it means we feel... I'd rather be on that journey, and keep positive and aiming at everything positive to delete that feeling from time to time, when it occurs, than to be a robot and never feel, therefore never feel depressed.
The ol sub-conscious knows all... Any negatives in life can be fought....