Oh Joe, I wonder if you actually realize how loved you are on a2k? Just because some of us don't post often doesn't mean we don't respect and care for you.
You are grieving. Grief is real and divorce is a part of your life that has died. Of course you grieve. In fact, you will most likely go through the (how many?) stages of grief. Let it happen, there is no better way to move on with your life.
Also, when the hurt is almost too much to bear, try to think of us on a2k who care so much and who are crying along with you. I think, in one way or another, we've all been there and our empathy is an understanding that goes deep.