ehBeth wrote:Izzie wrote:
I remain of the opinion that R would NOT benefit significantly from direct therapy at this stage. I believe it is in his interest to have opportunity to mature and benefit from the new environment at The House. I would regard the whole placement as therapeutic
. I am keen to keep the focus of change away from R to minimise the risk of him taking full responsibility for being placed in care
from years of reading IRP (individualized rehabilitation plans), I'd translate this to say that they are not ready to turn the focus to R yet - but that is where the focus will go, once he has matured/settled (if that is possible).
They have identified that he will be at risk at this time if he senses that he is responsible for being placed in care.
Thanks all - serenity prayer received - and calmer.
EBGirl - you are absolutely 100% - the point of his being placed in this setting - which is pretty unheard of in the UK for a child - is to take the focus off anything that can make him "feel bad about himself". In other words - his previous placements - if he did or said something, e.g. to another kid, it made him feel terrible - and the same thing when he comes home - after which he will then "self harm". His feeling "unloved" "not wanted" is huge - and couldnt be further from the truth - so he was placed there to ensure that he doesn't do, say, act, feel, take responsibility for the "bad feelings" he feels towards himself.
However, the only way it would definitely work - is if he lived in "R"s world where he had no contact with anyone ..... so, they say that until he has matured enough - in their opinion between the age of 25-30 - he cannot receive "individual therapy". I hear what they are saying, a large part of me agrees with it because he doesn't have the maturity - I understand it - but that's what's so hard.
If we pull back any further from his life - the rejection is too much for him - if we stay in his life - he feels rejected for being "in care". There's no balance. The real world does not afford him "the benefit of the doubt" - the real world looks at him - and if someone looks at him funny - or the tone of their voice - he can lose the plot - he hates himself. If someone in the street is laughing - he will think they are laughing at him. So he's placed where he has support to help him see the "bigger picture". But he's also a teenager who just wants to be like the other kids. Wants to be doing what the other kids do. No balance.
If the sun doesn't shine when the weather man says it will - he will get angry. If he wants to see someone and they back out or let him down - well............you can imagine the fallout. It's so hard to watch/hear him fall.
You know, the reason he came over to the town today - he planned to abscond - he had his clothes - he also had £20 on him. He rang me up and said "It's Pams birthday tomorrow - what do you think she would like". Pam is one of my girlies in town - one of my closest friends. He went there to buy her a present.
He wanted to run away - but he wanted to buy her a present. He's now with the police. You see - there's no balance. I can't get it to balance. His rollercoaster is way up, or way down. He's stuck at the bottom - yet his heart is at the top. He hurts.
And they still havent phoned me. 2.15am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!