On the edge and toppling off....

Well Brooke - We are blessed to have you - as we are Izzie and Dev and the rest of you. I am so thankful for you all. Good folkses you are .

You are doing great Brooke - never be embarrassed for sharing with us. We love you too much to be anything but happy with listening and encouraging you as you go through hard times.

JustBrooke keep safe and strength will come but it might take some time. Life is for living and live for the day as it will never be revisited! Hugs and love X

just as you think you can't feel worse... you realise you can

sick to your stomach and trusting nothing and no-one

bog... it's a big muddy bog

The House - keyworker and another staff member resigned.

R just been told.

Social services told R 2 weeks ago he can go into the 6th form at the college in our home town and get "new parents". No education since he was 11 - but, he can go into the 6th form and have "new parents" to boot.

Of course, punishment has been brutal for the last couple of weeks.

Today, R was told an hour ago. R is calm. He is going on freetime in the home town tonite.

I don't know what is going to happen tonite.

I now don't know which way to turn - I think maybe just bringing R home and taking the consequences...

all he said today was - "why do they hate me, why does everyone leave me"...

numb...

i can't even think of what to do now

i have phoned social services

i have phoned the house

Social services have not followed anything up since July...

The House will not answer my questions re psych input etc which are in writing

The Care Leavers Team man who told R "I'm your man" "I can fix all this" has had no contact with psych, The House, R's dad or me.

I ring... no-one rings back. I write... no-one writes back.

No-one is answerable... no-one cares.

What to do....

Square one.... again

same 'ole same 'ole... it doesn't change... history repeats itself... it has for years

it'll stop when it's too late, it already is too late, so much damage done... to all of us

Just sat down with a cuppa.

(check your mail...)

I just got this email from The House...

There is no message on my home phone and they know I have no mobile signal. Easy not to talk with someone when you leave a msg on a mobile that won't be picked up until I drive 10 minutes up the road a?


Ref: Staff changes at Klein House.

I tried to call you this afternoon when I got out of my meetings but your answer message came on. I had intended emailing you after the meeting to keep you informed of the changes.

Unfortunately there are going to be several staff changes at The House that are beyond my control.

To overcome these problems I have reorganised staffing generally and from 27/10/08 DW will become the registered manager. D is at present registered manager of another House premises and will transfer his registration to The House. He is also the deputy head of operations and has many years experience in management. OFSTED are aware and happy with this decision.

IM will continue to be deputy manager.

Unfortunately we will be losing DS, D and S. This will be a big change for R and hence I went to The House myself today to talk to R about this. Both DS and D were present and R took the news relatively well. I wanted to ensure that R was given the relevant information in a professional way so that he was aware of the changes and had the opportunity to discuss this with the three of us.

I have created a new staff mix that includes people with sporting, education and music backgrounds with the hope that R will engage at some level with at least one of the new activity options.

I am aware that he spoke with you after I left and became agitated about the news however I have just spoken to D and R is calm now and going to do the house shop.

Regards


So.... 3 leaving in one day!!!!!!!!!!!!! Safe, secure and predictable environment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RIGHT!

Not one staff member there he trusts. All NEW.... how can this happen. HOW?

Professional??????

Of course, as they say, R is just ticketyboo.....

I cannot believe these people.

I cannot believe this is happening. AGAIN.

R will not talk with them... the fallout happens here with me...

I'm just waiting

I'm so pissed off....

I'm not well. I know it. Body and mind. Not well.

Cold and rainy here. On my second cuppa, under blanket with Dink warming the lap, and occasionally trying to type...

Stay in touch with us, please.

I am way too ignorant to offer words... but I'm wishing you some peace.
((((((((( Izzie ))))))))

Oh Izzie - I am thinking of you. ((Izzie)) Do what Rock says please.

Yep of course you are p*ssed off with every right to be. If R joins 6th form with no proper support (there is very little support for aspergers kids in 6th form, as often statements are stopped), he will fail and that will bring him and you down but you have told everyone and put it into writing. Write to MP again and write to newspapers, make a stink so that someone, somewhere will sit up and realise. If Klein is kicking it's heels, then you must let it public! I know, easy for us to say but fight girl, I'll help if I can.

You need to decide, will you allow your son to be fostered? Ok you say it out of your hands but no it isn't not yet! He is 16 and will not be fostered, too old! But still not to old to get that help, remember I gave you that booklet contact these people and see if they can get him in the right home to help him. It seems these people have no idea how to deal with an aspergers person.

You have been and are a great Mum with a big heart! Ok limbs, joints etc hurt but your heart is true and you brain is strong. We all know and love you. Keep safe X

Thoughts and prayers to you Izzie.

They've got a fight now...

this is the last time they will treat him as if he's a faceless name and as if he doesn't matter. He does.

He's RYAN!

He doesn't deserve this.

No more.

Keep yer left up, and give em hell...

Izzie you are such a brave mother, you will prevail, sock it to them. Thinking of you and sending you vibes!

Let 'em HAVE IT, Izzie!!!

Go get 'em!

Is this the kind of thing where your ex's letter-writing skills could be taken advantage of?

exactly Beth -

thoughts and prayers Izzie - thoughts and prayers with you always.

Same goes for me! Right here behind you, Iz-. Thoughts and prayers always.
Sounds like annis has some good advice.

You are one of the strongest women I know, Izz.

Do what you have to do. ( as in...kick their ass!)

Thoughts and Prayers reaching out to you from my end, also.

((( Izz )))

Izzie am here til 4.30 when I must take F to bereavement counselling could always call in on way back. You take care X

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=NOSWdZr2rrk

Go kick some ass!

catching up...

Brooke -- your inner strength is immense. You also have tremendous faith. Both will pull you through those times when you need something to hold on to. We're all here as well for when you need to dump. Search for what you want - I've no doubt you'll find the path to get there. (((( Brooke ))))

MizIzz -- I'm here if you want to talk. I'm here if you don't. I've no words that can make a difference but I'm here and holding your hand. Love you! (((( Izzie ))))