Hey
TUESDAY!
Izzie wrote:HEY CREW
It's been a good day...
I took my first tentative steps into the paddock today
LOOKY HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(K K - they are my mother's new trainers
as I don't even possess a pair of trainers - and need
"sensible shoes" ugh!
yada yada yada....BUT - HOW HAPPY IS THAT!
I WALKED TODAY - (yep, like a right footed penguin - but I WALKED!)
(oh - the sun was shining....but it was sooooooo cold!!!!!!)
FlavourQueenie - OH HEY.....
since when was I the sensible gal a? Give me a mountain - I'll climb it
this was the Ship's Log!!!!!!!!!!!!
(thanku WW-WOM for helping me down off the log (
) and S-girl for carrying my tea cup - I weeble-wobbled quite well with your help and didn't fall off - thanku - love you guys!
)
Sis - hoping the day was a goodun - don't forget the Roman Party tomorrow a? :wink:
Missy hunni - hope you're k dixie-girl (xox)
BEAgle - missed ya today - but wishing you a big sleep and will talk in your morning
Rainkeeper - hun, you can do anything you like at the party.....just hoping you'll be here. To-ga to this party - anything goes!!!!!!!!
THURSDAY
K - folks. Am still toddling forward, just a slightly pained expression with the smile - but the laughter lines are still increasing on a daily basis. Much better than worry wrinkles.
I had my first physio today! Which was good but lotsa hard work ahead. The arches to my feet no longer exist (flat as a Shrove Tuesday) and my right ankle is horribly swollen. I am a bit of a shape-shifting-right-footed-penguin - as I have no arch in my right foot the foot is turning out slightly causing the pressure on my ankle which = OUCH! So I have to try and walk on the outside of that foot and do various exercises on the toes, movement and strengthening. I have muscle wastage (expected) in both my legs, especially the right, so it will all take time again to build up. Have always had chicken legs - just they are now the type that if you saw them in the supermarket you'd pass them by and say "eeeeeuww - that little chuck has no meat on it". As for my lefty - mmmmmmm - slight problem there - as I am lopsided walking most of the weight is going onto the left side where the problem 4th toe is. She feels the toe may be broken as it is completely lax. The scar tissue is pulling the 2nd and 4th toe way up off the floor (you can put a finger under toe so they are quite high off) and the 4th MTjoint (where the toe meets the foot bone) - well, it's like a gert big marble under the foot - so my whole body weight is going thru that. So, heaps of massaging the toots to work out the scar tissue and see if it will release the toes so they can move down, again - building up the arch blah blah blah and shift the weight to the arch to balance the shift on the right foot. Then trying to get the energy back to move out of my "bubble" and back into the real world. All gonna take time - but hey, no worries - will get there.
Hands are very swollen today and sore - but hey, don't have to walk on the hands as I'm not intending on joining a circus - well, except for the circus we have on the ship, and my juggling days with work and "real life" won't commence for a few more weeks. So that's all coco - said the clown!
Don't have much incentive to sort thru the mounting paperwork right now - tho I HAVE done some today and TIDIED the kitchen up which looked like a twister had gone thru - unopened mail and papers everywhere. Just can't seem to focus on being "sensible and responsible" in that department. Went downstairs and got a load of envelope files, which are now sat beside me and I am going to put everything in order. I WILL! I WILL! I WILL! K- said it, so now I have to do it. Ima bit like that.
House stuff is dragging on - but again, nothing really seems to bother me too much at the moment - everyone else is tearing their hair out - but it's all way over my head. Can't make it happen any quicker so don't really see the point in stressing about it. Leaving that to Mom and ex-hub who seem to want it all just fine, dandy and sorted so we need to push everyone, everyday. I keep saying it is all fine and dandy - just they can't see it. Gosh - they are so negative - just really can't be doing with it. Sounds selfish - but they "own" their negativity and I can't make anyone see that, actually, "everything is good right now" - just got to stay positive. If I don't - I go back to black. Don't want to do that. I am driving them nuts now tho - I'm sure they think I'm on something - they are so used to me crawling around in the dark not knowing which way to turn next - they just can't see my knickers tucked in my dress as I'm flying. Hey ho - will continue this way as long as I am able - and if I fall to earth with a bump - well, there's some pretty good laughter medicine and people who "see" me here to help me pick back up should I need to.
Nah - not going to bump - have had my foot fused, toes pinned - not gonna let anyone "pinion" my fairy wings. :wink:
R is doing alright at the moment. Little scary at times still, but again, just got to focus on all his positive moves forward and not dwell on the "what if's and tomorrows". Day at a time for him - and he's surviving 24/7 - albeit that it's hard for him, and still hurts my heart. But he's doing it - and his achievements push the scary bits away. Each day I wake up - it's another day, a new start - for him, and me
The Little Fella is doing great. He has just been on a "Young Carers" Residential trip - where the kids are spoiled rotten as a "reward" and "outlet" for their help within the home and family situation. Bless him. He went abseiling, climbing, assault course, swimming, 40ft zip wires - all good kid stuff - and had a blast. He so deserves it. I pulled him out of school so he could do this - I still believe all kids learn more with "that sort of" education - it was only 3 days - and in my book, 3 days better off than sitting at a desk learning the 3 R's. He came back tired, cranky, covered in freckles from being in the sun, bruised, dirty, smelly
- HEY - perfect. He was allowed to be a kid. On Saturday he is coming home (here) to sleep - Tulip and her babies are coming across and we're having a games nite (In The Bag) - my little fella is a real thesp - loves to act and dance around - it will be great. Pizza and garlic bread nite. No hassle. Tulip will be on the vino and I might just have rare G&T. Tulip and Izzie sleepover. How happy will that be.
So - all in all
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Work ahead - physical is fine - mentally have got my peers here - so will keep sailing on a wing and a prayer.
Thanking everyone - for all that they do
especially holding my hand when I reach out. You guys are marvels.
Hope the "sinus" girls are better now and Noddy - thinking of you.
xox
now..... where are those files and paperwork
