sozobe wrote: She was sometimes way down in the dumps.
So, while I think you know that, just thought I'd put it out there. Sometimes things just plain suck.
Take care.
Hi folks - thanku
Hey - sozobe - that's the nice thing about being on A2K - I can whinge when it hurts and I don't have to smile all the time.... not when it hurts so bad AND I can also be the cheeky Brit who smiles (annoyingly to some) when I want to - and no-one judges me. (yet!)
I really am ... "What you see is what you get". Have spent too many years bottling up and pretending all was fine - nearly destroyed me in the end. Still have just one big issue I can't deal with and will deal with that as and when I am strong enough physically.
However, I've 2 active threads going on this forum now - and they are both me - I do really have a big smile inside all the time - the one in my heart which although bruised and battered daily, is still beating, and a big smile a majority of the time on the outside. Only since January tho .... I think half the people who think they know me in my life in the UK think I must be taking happy pills - they have watched a lotta things happening to me and mine over the years - and even tho that's all still happening - I'm no longer the same person I was on the outside last year, and I think it may be confusing some of them
including my family!
Oh, I dunno if that makes any sense... I know what I mean. In essence - the real me, who's been shutting down for years, is back and staying - new starts, new life. I can stay true to me and actually, anyone who doesn't like it - too bad! I am my own person.
So - painwise - well - still there but mind is soaring not sinking as it was earlier. Have a feeling it's going to be a long "heated" nite - but am trying to distract myself by reading up on threads and stuff.
I wish someone could come up with the following tho: PLEASE DON THINKING CAPS.....K - here we go!
Ways to keep feet elevated without having to lie down or sit up. If I lie down with feet up - very sore bum (tailbone!!!!!!!!!!). If I sit on a chair or in the bed ... very sore bum. If I lay on my side - whichever side - elbows joints swollen badly, shoulder and hip joints in pain. (That's the tough thing - I'm so very used to hurtling around!)
I can't go out and about in the wheelchair because the pain is unbearable if the feet are low for more than a few minutes. (driving me completely mad right this minute and burning up!). A friend is going to bring a cushion over with a square cut out the back and see if that makes a difference!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh - the indignity of it all
Now what I need - other than being suspended feet first from a high-wire where all the blood will rush to my head - and how dangerous would that be with a brain like mine................ what I need is to be rotisseried
- as I'm going around, I need to have chocolate when facing East, nutritional food whilst facing South (don't like food!) so will pass the South more quickly - oh no I won't - will have a quick massage whilst on my front, Cake and Doughnuts when facing West and Drip Fed Earl Grey T when facing North. Perfect!
Anyone got any other ideas..... coz my bum is NUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!