In memory of my dad

Finally I got the hospital bill. It is $16,996.45

It was less than the last bill because the doctors didn't have to re-do all the labs or procedures they did the first time. Like sticking tubes up my nose and down my throat into my lungs or putting a scope down my throat to look at my heart. You know, the fun stuff.

I made the heart surgeon mad. The drugs to make me relax don't work on me so we did it without. He had that scope down my throat and I asked him how long he was going to be because it was very uncomfortable. He sternly told me NOT to talk because when I did, the scope moved and it was right by my heart. So, I started giggling instead. He was not happy.

In addition to the hospital bill of $16,996.45, the doctor bills came to around $4,ooo. I didn't add them all up.

Dad,
I miss you and I wish you were here so I could say Happy Birthday to you.

I think of my dad every time I get on an aircraft. I miss calling him from the plane.

going to california from seattle


going to maui from seattle


going to cabo from seattle


going to seattle from san diego

Dad you would have liked this....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_t8J42VTW4&feature=fvsr

Dad
It's time for me to leave. I still smile every time I think of you and when I get back to D.C., I will check into doing what we talked about

I wish you were here to see this video. It's nice to see they did the right thing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HjWtRYaxmWM&feature=related

Well, I can't stay anymore. Bye

TTH,

I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. What a bautiful tribute you have given your father in this thread. I do hope and pray that you continue to do so. The love you two obviously had for each other is an inspiration.

The pictures are beautiful. I hesitated to post that, because saying funeral pictures are beautiful does not sound right, but the beauty comes from you and the love you had for your father, if that makes sense to you.

I will keep you and your family in my prayers. God bless you and keep you. This is a beautiful thread..................absolutely beautiful.

I am so glad that you are recovering. You have definitely been through the wringer. I admire your strength.

You are quite a beautiful woman and that is an adorable puppy!

Arella Mae,
The reason I wasn't going to post here anymore is because I have fully accepted my dad's death. Being able to write about my dad helped me get through some tough times. What really helped me accept his death was being in ICU and being told by the docs their best estimate is I only had about 12 hours left. I wasn't in pain and I wasn't scared. So, if I felt that way maybe my dad felt the same way. That gave me comfort.

I thought about 3 things mainly.

1) Letting the doctors know I was okay and I knew they did their best to help me. I hugged them and thanked them.
2) I made my other 1/2 promise me to let certain people on this site know what happened. He didn't want to and I finally told him I would haunt him if he didn't
3) I just wanted to hold my dog one last time. The nurses told me they would let me know when they felt the time was getting close so I could have someone bring my dog in. Was that against the rules? Yes. They were kind enough to make an exception knowing how much it meant to me.

Anyway, I wanted to let you know I read what you posted. Strong? I wasn't strong after my dad died. I was actually a mess and it is still really hard to go to my parents house. My mom is so sad and I don't know what to do to help her.

I took this pic on the 4th. This plane was leaving seattle and I smiled because I wasn't on it.

Dad,
I never realized how spoiled we are here in the USA until I went to Europe. I am so proud that you fought for what you believed in and I have the rights I do today. Finally I managed to get my flag up and flying. You make me proud to be an American.

Dad,
It has been awhile since I went sailing. It was fun.

Oh Dad,
I wish so much you were here. Never in my life would I think I would pet a real alligator in the wild. This gator was big and I was really careful to watch where it's head was because I kinda like having a hand/arm. I did this while on a tour boat in New Orleans and when this huge thing came up along side the boat I just reached over in the water and petted it.

This won't make sense to anyone, but I finally found the company as far as it's actual location and it is in the United States which makes what they are doing a federal offense. I can't stand these companies who rip people off.

You really shouldn't pet alligators

Dad,
So a couple members on this site mentioned I should check this place out. I did and it was really good.

Thanks Dad

How are you doing? I imagine yesterday was a tad difficult for you. I hope it's becoming at least a bit easier.

Oh jespah, I didn't know you made this post until today so accept my apology. Thanks for responding. I became overwhelmed with alot of bad things happening lately, but I am optimistic and will continue to look for the positive.

My dad would be happy to know that all us kids are getting along. It is a good feeling for all of us to let go of the little stuff and care about what really matters - family & friends

Merry Christmas to all!

Oh, no sweat. That's a good gift to give to him, to honor his memory -- for your family to get along. Hope you had a good Xmas.

Thank you and yes it was a nice Christmas Eve because I spent it at my brother's house and everyone in my immediate family was able to be there except for my oldest sister.

We had a good time and I know my dad would have liked that

Dad,
I am so glad you are not here to have to hear about the shootings or about Doris' cancers. I have attended the memorials, been with my sister throughout her appt., procedures and surgeries and done my best to stop by mom's. I didn't tell my sister what the surgeon said to me on the last surgery. In fact I haven't told anyone. I think she will heal better without the stress of knowing and I'm not sure I am doing the right thing by not telling her. I feel I am and that is all I can go by.

I am going away again.....don't really want to so I listen to this:

..except my bags aren't packed yet

Aidan I read what you wrote on the other thread. It's okay not to respond