In memory of my dad

I took these pictures today. I was inside the house and took the pictures through the sliding glass door.

Looking out the right side of the door....



Looking out the left side of the door....


My dad would have enjoyed these, especially the cat watching. The cat doesn't chase them anymore. He knows I won't feed him if he does. Same with birds. He killed a baby bird one time and I kept that bird for a few days and would show it to him, show him the food and say NO. I did that every day for 3 days without feeding him. Since then, he has not killed a bird in my yard.

I wanted to post this card in memory of my dad. I know I am early, but don't plan on being around much.

Bless you, TTH. I hope Fathers Day isn't too sad for you. But I can only imagine that it will be. Just remember the good times and feel his love. That love never dies.

~ Hugs

Thank you JustBrooke
I don't think I will be sad. Just wishing I could have done something for my dad so he wouldn't have died. I do realize that there was nothing I could have done though.

Dad
I accept the fact that I will never see you again. I don't believe in god.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRsJlAJvOSM&feature=related

(((((( TTH ))))))

Thanks OCCUM BILL. Some times a virtual hug is better than no hug at all.

This is when I miss my dad the most. I have to get on a plane in a few hours and I am scared. Don't know why, I just am. I am so tired of people telling me "you will be fine" or "you fly more than most people, what the hell do you have to be scared of". Oh well, some things never change.

I will be thinking of you dad.

When I'm scared .... I close my eyes and envision every single person that I think has any kind of love for me at all. And I pull all of that love across me like a big comfy blanket.

Thanks JustBrooke
I thought of my dad while I was in the plane. Actually, I wasn't that scared. Problem is I don't know if thinking about my dad makes it better or I just don't care anymore if the plane crashes.

This makes me sick. It happens more than people know.
http://www.nwcn.com/statenews/washington/stories/NW_050608INV_tacoma_kennel_KS.d4f0bafe.html

I picked my dog up this morning and never again will I board her where I did. It was not at the above kennel in the link. I won't name the kennel, but it was highly recommended.

Hey there TTH. Glad your flight was a safe one.

I won't board my dog at a kennel, either. Though I'm sure that there really are some good ones.

Here's some pics of where I take my dog to. It's an actual doggie hotel. I know that sounds funny but they give them a lot on 1 on 1 care. You can leave your animal there if you are going out of town or if you just need day care for them. They also groom my dog for me when it needs done. (for an extra fee)

This is the front entrance.



You go through this one set of double doors and it takes you back to the rooms. They each have their own room with a bed, radio, and whatever toys you wish to bring from home.



Here's one of the play rooms where the animals can play together. Always supervised of course.




They have toy boxes scattered around and the animals get into them and take what they want. Just like a kid!




They have a huge fenced in area outside for them to get fresh air. Although if you want your dog exercised for say, a nice long hike....that's an extra charge.

Anyhow......it's the only way I can leave my dog and feel half-way ok about it. Though there are never any guarantees.

God help me when I have kids and start needing babysitters.

Sorry the pictures you posted JustBrooke aren't there anymore. I did see them though.

Well, I get on an airplane in the morning and yes I am scared. Just wish I could talk to my dad. I really miss him.

2 minutes to count down. That means I have to pack that suitcase
Will be thinking of you dad

NO more stalling (me, not the plane )

Dad
It has been 1 year now since you died. Time went by real fast since it seems like only yesterday. My dad would have liked this----my dog is a little over 4 years old and she just learned how to growl

Dad
The surgery was done on my shoulder and it appears to be successful. I am working real hard on the physical therapy.

Something happened a few days after the operation and I was rushed to ICU at TGH. At first I didn't know what was going on because I didn't feel real sick. The doctors told me they didn't know what was wrong, they had a lot of questions, but no answers.

As time went on and seeing the monitors I realized things were not good. When it got to the point where I had to wear a full face oxygen mask because I could no longer breath on my own is when the doctors came in and this one special doctor held my hands, looked me in the eyes and as he teared up told
me time was running out and they were afraid I wasn't going to make it. I felt real bad for the doctors because they were working so hard trying to figure out why my body was shutting down and they didn't know. I could see how frustrated they were.

So, who would have thought that the same week you died and the day you were buried, I was in ICU facing similar circumstances as you. I wrote this because when I was told I probably wouldn't make it I felt a sense of comfort in dealing with your death. I wasn't in any pain and my mind never gave up hope. I sense you felt the same way except for your body gave up, but you never did and that helped me accept your death.

Jeez, that sounds awful, TTH! I'm so sorry you've had to go through that-- are you okay now?

TTH, Glad you're well enough to be here and posting.

Thank you cyphercat and Roberta. Something is still wrong, the doctors can see it in the x-rays of my lungs. They just don't know what it is. I feel okay and I go back and get x-rays in a few days.

What is even more strange is my mom was admitted into a different hospital the very same week and was put into ICU also. So both me and my mom were in ICU wards the same week my dad was a year ago. My mom is home now so I am spending a lot of time there helping her out.

I didn't let my mom, brothers or sisters know that I was in the hospital. I thought it was best for them to visit with mom and help her get well. My brothers and sisters were finally called when the doctors didn't think I was going to make it. They weren't so understanding. I know my dad would have understood why I didn't tell them.

Oh, good luck with everything, TTH-- I hope they find something conclusive in the next x-rays, it's so frustrating and weird when something's wrong and the doctors don't know what it is (happens more often than you'd hope... ). I'll keep you in my thoughts--update us when you find anything out, okay?

Well the doctors see something in the x-rays, just don't know what. I go back next week for another set and more tests. I will keep you updated