DD
I feel a little odd today as I got to bed very late (in my post-moving house phase, anyway!) after a get together with a group of old friends last night. We meet each Christmas. About the only time we see each other these days, all our lives are so busy. Sad, really ..
Anyway, I am not at all accustommed to getting up so late & still feel strange having missed the start of today. My favourite time, when I sit outside, drink many cups of tea while my cats & I watch the new day unfold. Very peaceful.
I am fast becoming used to calling this new place "home". The cats seem to have gotten used to it, too. In fact it's amazing how my old life seems to be falling away, disappearing ... Yes, a new start is good! Out with the old, the painful things that can't be changed, the things that I must let go of ...
Dupre, you mentioned me starting a new life a while back in this thread, along with what others are doing. As if, compared with how you're feeling right now, what I'm doing (& others are doing) this was a brave, adventurous thing ... No, no, not at all! This virtually had to be forced onto me! It was clear my old life was finished. It was clear that my previous, much-loved home (of something like 20 years) had to be sold & the & the poceeds divided between me & my former partner. If I'd had my druthers I would have chosen to stay on there, minus the ex-partner. That's the longest I've lived anywhere in my life & it was "home" to me. So you see, I didn't embrace the idea at all, for quite a while ... Sometimes change is forced onto us (like maybe for you at the moment?) & we have no choice in the matter.
But, now that it's done, I'm GLAD!
This is good for me! I did all my grieving while I was preparing for the move & it feels RIGHT now, that all of that has gone.
What I'm trying to say, dupre, is that sometimes we can surprise ourselves. We think we can't bear things, but we can. We think we can't change, but we can & do ... We are more resilient than we think!
On that note, I'll stop ... Enough already. I hope my ramblings have been of some help to you, dupre. If things feel hopeless to you right now (if you haven't already) consider getting the necessary support to help you sort out what you want/need/have to do. (& I hope you don't think I'm being presumptuous in offering this advice ... not at all my intention.)