yes...I hadn't thought of that.
He was in a wonderful mood yesterday, telling me that he believes things are going to be okay. I heard him talking to his mom on the phone and telling her that we were doing great and that things are getting much better. I could tell by his end of the conversation that she was very relieved.
I hope he means it.....this is the same man who told me I was a "sleeping beauty" and that he loved looking at me while I slept......just a few weeks before he left me.
I don't think the trust will be back for a long, long, long long time.
On another note, I have decided to bring back all aspects of our relationship. The tests came back negative from the doctor, and while yes, I know I should wait another 3-6 months for more tests, I don't want to. The chances are very slim that anything is wrong at this point (considering he also was tested 3 months ago at her insistence.) Hubby was thrilled to move back into our room last night. I just want to START getting back our relationship.....and see how it works. If we have this huge gap in our lives, it will never get back to normal.
No....I'm not deluding myself into thinking that they can go back to the way they were. But we need to get some semblance of normalcy back, or she will always be a wall between us. We have to put her behind us, while I see if I can get back some trust in him. I don't know yet.....but why cut out a large part of the relationship? It's important to both of us, and we are going to try to get back our lives now.
I do believe that trying to see if we want to work it out without allowing any of the enjoyable aspects of the relationship to enter into the picture, is dooming the relationship to failure by concentrating only on the negatives. I think this way, he will realize how much he has missed, and find out all the sooner how much he loves me.
And if he doesn't....so what? I'm not out anything, and I won't feel cheapened or anything....he IS my husband, after all. I'm not the one who has anything to feel guilty over simply because I want to sleep with him, right?
Anyway....that's where it stands now. To all......you've been a godsend.