No problem, I understand that everyone who had any replies only had my best interest at heart and for that I am greatful.
I will always be weary of him now, I did see his bad side and because I have never seen that side of him I was taken aback and confused and rightly angered. I know that our relationship will never be the same again.
When I decided to asks for help from A2K, I did it with the intention of saving my marriage. My husband's apology and his willingness to go for counselling was a sign to me that there might be a 2nd chance for us, and that saving our marriage is inportant to him too.
But, I will always be aware of the fact that he actually did abuse me, and all I can do is pray, hope and be positive that it'll not happen again.
Thanks for all the advice guys... I have really learnt so much from this forum... and no, I don't think you are harsh.... just concerned...