So how are YOU today?

Oh and - <extricating himself from his self-centredness> - I hope Seed got to get a good sleep-in, in the end ... Sleep is waaay important.

How ya been anyway, Seed? We havent seen you around in ages, I dont think ...

SEED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am much better today now I have seen Seed !

10:47 pm & still working, working, working .... Looks like I'm back at work!
... So hello & goodbye for tonight, everyone!

Msolga! I just found this thread. Are you really OK now? Tell me about your work if you haven't already done so in detail on this thread. I have lots of catching up to do, reading all the interesting posters and snippets of their lives. Wonderful.

I'm well today and looking forward to a camping trip to Navajo Lake and on to a more isolated place in Colorado. We'll be gone about four days. As usual, the entire family will accompany us: Fred the parrot and Sally the dog--both excellent travelers and good campers.

Diane, I love your life! The things you do! Fantastic!

My work is teaching, Diane. I'm not half bad at it & have been doing contract work after resigning from a permanent position some years ago. I'm not an ambitious person, never have been. I continue to teach because I like the job, find adolescents interesting, touching, inspiring, mind-boggling & challenging & because I need a wage to survive! The reason I was working so late last night is because I caught a ripper of a cold during the term holiday & haven't caught up with oh-so-much planning & other necessary work since!

An early night tonight for me. No choice. I am so tired!

As for you: onward to the next adventure!

Crap,Im hungry and Iv just had rubbish from the past dragged up n its biting me on the arse.

How ya been anyway, Seed? We havent seen you around in ages, I dont think ...


im doing well things are going slpendid... long days but hey i went to bed at 7 last night and woke up at 6 so now im well rested i hope everyone is doing well around these parts

I got the paycheck after all! Just found out! Very surprised! One person here helped, thanks!!

I still don't know if it's that I only had to invite 15 people (which I did, much more actually) or that I eventually successfully got 15 people to join (not by their stated deadline, but I won't argue!)

Whew. I was bummed when I thought I'd put in all that work for nothing.

On the other hand, I had a big conversation with myself today about my "worth it" neurosis. (Yes, I have conversations with myself, gonna make something of it?) I have been taking long circuitous routes home from dropping off the kid at her friend's house, 'cause I've been here a year and still don't know the city that well. So I wander, find things. It's fun. Today I had a goal in mind, was trying to find a particular store. Drove to where it was, couldn't find it. Hmph. Well, maybe I'll go to this other place. Couldn't find it. Hmph. I started getting into "worth it" mode -- hey, look, that nursery is having a 75% off sale! I could stop there and get all kinds of great plants and all this driving will be worth it! It's this thing I do -- for an athiest, I have way too much faith in things having a way of working out. More towards karma than anything else, I guess.

But that's gotten me in trouble, too, as I get myself in deeper waiting for the payoff. And sometimes totally backfires.

So I just accepted that I'd pretty much wasted an hour of driving around with no particular payoff, and came home. And it was fine.

Maybe the payoff was that I got that much closer to accepting things for what they are without trying to make something bigger out of them?

<someone stop me>

Anyway, the driving around was good in and of itself, saw some interesting places and getting a better and better feel for the city outside of my area.

<smiles at Sozobe>

sounds familiar ... you are very articulate.

So this is how bad I am about the karma thing:

I have been super-thrifty during this especially tight period, just haven't been buying clothes or shoes or anything. That was part of my motivation for starting work, to have a tiny bit of breathing room and be able to buy a skirt that's not 90% off if I feel like it, gosh darn it. So today I finally went out shopping, got some things I'd been waiting to get for a long time. Still ended up getting sale stuff; got a gorgeous dress, a cool jacket, and a skirt for me, and a skirt, sunglasses, assorted hair things, and a toy for sozlet all for about $80.)

So, came home. Checked email. There was a message from the company I referred to above, saying whoopsie, disregard yesterday's message, you didn't earn your paycheck after all. Our mistake.

<stew>

Of course, my first thought was that I had it coming because I went and wasted money on frivolous things.

(Who needs religion for guilt trips?)

Soz! You're certifiably nuts! You haven't bought any clothes in a long time, and you got all that for only $80? That's brilliant!

A bit wretched, actually. Why does old, thoroughly dealt with "stuff" suddenly pop up again, out of the blue, & bite you on the bum?

Because I still love you, OK?

Well, that AND the fact that it is dilectably biteable.

< looking to see whose standing behind me>

Moi?

That's nice!

True, true, Ellpus!

The bastids!

We mirror each others needs.

The ones you'd never admit to.

Little kids, who just want to be loved - and kept safe from harm.

But how's two little kids gonna take care of each other?

God, I need a hug. And I dont know anyone here well enough to give me one.

Bugger.

nimh,

Hugs are free and I have a million to give. If my arms could reach, you'd be feeling it right about............now!

It's always wonderful to feel the warmth of another human and know they care about you.

Here's one!
From someone you know just a wee little bit!