Explaining Why I Left A2K for Awhile

Hi Arella Mae, just finished reading this thread and it's 11:37 pm. You have lots of support here, that's good because I noticed you gaining confidence as everybody is so helpful.

Why don't you just pretend you are taking a tough course, look at all you have to do to prove yourself right, as assignments. Keep cool, girl. Think of it as "just a job." Who knows, you might even win! Good luck to you. Smile at all those people, some little mysterious smile. That'll scare them because it will be unexpected.

I was going to call him on my way to work in the morning. Johnny said he's in early.

I know I probably sound paranoid about all of this. But I truly am at my wits end. I am being told we are not trying to fire you, we promise, and then everytime I turn around they are trying to screw me one way or another.

I have been being so careful with all of my paperwork. But they are looking for stuff. Everyday I get an email about some mistake I made on the shipping schedule. I worked for over an hour making sure every single number added up on the Canadian paperwork for tomorrow's shipment. I still got an email cc'd to the Plant Manager. I have never ever given the Carrier's phone number to the shipping manager and he's never asked for one before. But he ships off an email making it sound like I forgot to put something on there again. We CSRs are the ones that call the carrier if they are late, etc. He just did it to make it look like I'm still making mistakes. The bright side was, it was only one email today so I should be grateful for that.

I am not eating and obviously not sleeping since it is 3:36am here and I am up. I tried to sleep but I can't shut off my mind about this. I am at the point of trying too hard and I know it. I wish I were ten or twenty years younger. I could have handled this back then. I probably sound like I am whining and maybe in a way I am. I can only talk to my husband about this because I have to keep it quiet. So you all are my sounding board right now. Johnny is very supportive but I'm starting to feel like my nervousness, etc., is affecting him and it has to be. I'm not myself.

I know what I have to do and I'm going to do it. I'm not going to back down. I just need to stop waiting for that next knife in the back. If I can stop that feeling I'll be okay.

No, I haven't been looking for another job. I'm not at a point emotionally that I could get through an interview. They ask one question about why I'm looking for a job and I'd lose it and look like a total basketcase.

I seem to be able to do that until I get called on the carpet for something. I go into work with the attitude of just do my job, be my happy self and see what happens. I'm getting worn out from it but I will get through it.

I do have a lot of support here on A2K and that means a lot to me! Where else could I go at 3:36am and be able to get things off my chest and have others understand?

I like your signature line.

Do u want us to call u Arella, or Rusty ?





David

I agree with Osso. Sign the minutes with your own amendment that you "heard him say blah blah" and that the intention of that point was so and so.

People amend minutes all the time. Oh, and get a copy of it with your amendment, signed.

Did I say that? I didn't mean to, I meant I'd write that separately, but now that you mention it, I could see that as doable, Mame. But, I'd talk with the attorney first, natch.

Arella, on it being your recollection, I can see what you mean, it could be taken as just one view.. but you could say (preferably write) "this is what I heard in the meeting".

On whether the HR person was lying, you don't know that for sure, or I'm not sure you do, but maybe. As in the situation that I described in my past, the note taker can be plain mistaken because of poor following what's going on. Hard for some to scribble and listen at the same time.

Oh I'm pretty sure the HR wrote the minutes the way the Plant Manager wanted them written. I've written up minutes for plenty of companies, not to mention Strata councils, and they'll often want them changed. It's a moral dilemma I've faced many times. She needs to just amend them and sign. And get a copy.

Actually, it was Firefly, not you, who said that.

You know much more than I do about how much that happens.

<thanking my lucky stars I've haven't led a work life filled with that kind of meeting>

Talk about a strange day! I took my statement over to HR and told her I'd sign the minutes as long as my statement was attached. You guys were right about that.

We have visitors at work from home office today and tomorrow. Everyone was on their best behavior today. It was quite pleasant. I figured well, it's nuts because I can't get a grasp on what in the world these people are doing and when I think it's all going to hit the fan then nothing happens and vice versa. So, I decided to just make the best of my day. I got a couple of emails from some of my customers telling me how much they appreciate me. Just out of the blue! Yes, I printed them out and kept them.

Oh, the truck that freightquote.com sent today was a refer and no way does our product go refrigerated so I spent a good part of the day trying to find another truck to make the load to Canada and just knew the shipping manager was going to throw a fit. Well, he just said, no worries. He'll do the no worries thing for a day or two and then back to the tattle tale emails.

I emailed the plant manager and told him I had gotten another truck guaranteed to be the right kind and at the plant at 7am tomorrow and had given the shipping manager the carrier's name, number, etc. He sends me an email that said, "Great job!"

What the......................? I missed all that sleep last night only to have a really decent day. I got so much work done. I am exhausted so I'm really hoping I can sleep tonight.

Oh have to tell you something funny. One of my customers called and I had made a mistake in an order. I sent 6' of pipe insulation and it was supposed to be 45'. She really likes me and I like her. She said she would just make up something to tell her client so I wouldn't get in trouble. I told her no, what you are going to do is tell him that I made a mistake and I'm going to make it right. She said, "Are you one of them Christians?" Honestly, I had to laugh. It was more the way she said it. She didn't say it in an offensive way at all. It made me laugh.

Glad you finally had a pleasant day. I hope today goes the same way.

How nice you got those appeciative e-mails from customers, that should have given you an ego boost. It would be great if everyone took the time to let someone know when they appreciate their work. Maybe you ought to forward them to HR, or the shipping manager, to share the positive feedback.

And I'm glad the shipping manager does give you a pat on the back when you do a great job. Maybe when he sends you the critical e-mails, pointing out a mistake, instead of tying yourself up in knots, you ought to reply and actually thank him for bringing it to your attention. If he is trying to drive you crazy, that sort of response should disarm him.

I thought about you, and the problems of working in a crazy place, when I saw this...

It's the Plant Manager that tells me I do a good job and then two days later writes me up.

I am just sick of bending over backwards I guess. I will keep doing it. I'm just tired of all of it and want it to end. The visitors are gone so Monday I am sure things will go back to the way they were.

It's okay. I won't quit. I'm making sure I take my time and do everything the best I can. I didn't get a single you messed up email today so that was cool!

Love the cartoon! It tells you exactly how I feel!

How are things going, Arella Mae?

Have you heard from the lawyer?

How are you going, Arella?
I hope everything's OK with you.

Sorry I haven't posted for a few days. I'm doing okay. I'm still tense at work but not in the same way. "They" are now acting as if they are my best friends again. It's a roller coaster ride. I am taking my time with my job and checking everything over and over again. So far this week, not a single "dinging me for something wrong email!" and I made it through Thursday at 4:00pm, when they usually let people go, without losing my job.

Johnny talked to his lawyer yesterday. The lawyer is going to talk to what he called a "heavy hitter" in Shreveport about this and then let us know if we can do anything and if we can we'll set up an appointment. It's been a bit slower the last couple of days at work so it gives me a chance to catch up on filing, etc. I have to make sure everything is done and done to the best it can be.

My big akita had to have a hip replacement this week. He hurt the leg over a year ago but gained most of the use of it back. I came home from work the other day and the leg was just hanging there and he couldn't walk on it. He had worn the ball joint down so much it became dislocated. I nearly freaked when I saw him when he came home from the vet. He had lost a lot of weight and has this incision running down his leg from his hip bone. He's now my bionic dog and he'll be fine. Oh, he is also neutered now and I don't think he's happy about that but he was next in line for that. The puppies are next and then everyone is fixed.

No news on the court date for the dog murderer yet and that's making me a bit angry.

I have to tell you all, I am sooooooooo sick of drama! All I want to do this weekend is go visit my horses and JJ and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppp!

I wish u lots n lots of GOOD LUCK, Arella ( or do u prefer "Rusty"?)





David

Glad the Akita's surgery went well. I'm sure he'll quickly regain the weight he lost, and, once he has healed, walking should be so much better and easier for him. It's great that they can do hip replacements for dogs.

And I'm very glad you had a relatively uneventful week at work.



a very relaxing weekend...

I wonder Y that cat
is wearing those huge shoes.

Well, they fired me. He said he was firing me because I used up too much internet time. WHAT???????????? I told him yeah I listened to documentaries and stuff while I was working. What difference is that than others reading a book or sleeping at their desks? I said you don't have to fire me for that. All you had to do was tell me not to do it. Oh get this, Dave said, I've covered for you over and over again. WHAT???????????? That is not what it says on the recordings! I told him, "Why can't you just be honest? You know you have been looking for a reason to fire me!" Thank God I have those recordings. Thank God I have the emails where he told me thanx for being willing to do whatever it takes to get the job done and great job! But, I am really ticked. I was trying to delete my pictures off my computer and the HR woman told me to get off the computer and pack my stuff up and leave. She got pretty nasty.

Thank God I had every single thing done. All but finishing getting one more shipment on the shipping schedule. This is crap! People can get away with sleeping at their desks, reading books, playing games on the computer but I get fired for listening to documentaries while I work? Alot of that internet time is where I have trucking company sites left up because I use them so much during the day. If they'd just check they'd see I was working! Oh, then Dave tells me, you only have eight orders this month and Walter and Jessica have forty. I had 12 shipments going out just tomorrow alone!

Why are they just telling me that now? IT runs reports all the time about computer usage. Why choose today to tell me? Why? Because they were looking for a reason to fire me, that's why.

I told the HR lady I wanted a copy of everything in my personnel file. LOL! She told me she had to go through Myrna (the HR lady that laughed because I wanted to pray about something) I told her that I have a right to what is in that file. She said no I didn't. I told her you will hear from my lawyer.

I'm upset because I loved my job. I'm not upset because now I can sue and really not feel any angst about it. This sucks!

Arella Mae, I'm sorry to hear this. I can only imagine how angry and frustrated you must feel.

Sock it to 'em, kid.