Rae its all up hill from now on think positive, and good luck
Hey, RaeGirl!
Sounds like you've been doing well lately - getting out, interviewing - having good interviews - and <crossing fingers, toes, legs, hair and eyes> hopefully great news tomorrow!
and a weekend with your pupster - the stars are working for you!
Well, I'm not totally comfortable leaving the house yet ~ going to the store and stuff is okay, but I still have to take the panic sedative for interviews and even calling about jobs.
I've had a wonderful weekend with my puppy ~ as soon as I get around to downloadiing the pictures, I'll post them. Even though the cats are holed up in Mom's room, she is spoiling the dog something terrible! Maggie isn't going to want to go home!
Thanks, Beth ~ and I hope you're enjoying your Sunday! Any more news about whether or not you can make the April gathering? Hint, hint, nudge, nudge, wink, wink..... :wink:
Okay, I'm not looking for sympathy, suggestions of keeping my spirits up or anything.....This is more like my own 'dear diary' submission.
Today I am very depressed. I made the assumption that I would hear from this company within one day ~ so far I haven't heard a thing. Which isn't necessarily bad, but it doesn't make me feel any better. I'm giving it one full day without contact then I will call again tomorrow.
I had my counseling session on Monday and my counselor suggested that I ask the psychiatrist (that I'm required to see) to up my medications.
I am able to leave the house to places that I'm very familiar with ~ grocery store, post office, convenience store, etc. But, I am still having huge problems ~ more like procrastination ~ in soliciting for jobs. My only fear in that is that I'll take the first job offered ~ and my finances aren't biased ~ they're telling me to take anything.
So, there is a retail store two blocks from me and I WILL apply with them tomorrow. I have to keep the momentum going otherwise I fear I will revert. Feeling sorry for myself is something I HATE and I'm trying to avoid that at all costs.
Not only has the support from A2K been outstanding, I am getting support from my Mom, Dad, sister and brother-in-law ~ on a daily basis and I'll be honest and tell you that Mom and Dad are my biggest cheerleaders right now ~ not only do I appreciate them, but they have both shown love and caring in such a way that amazes me and pushes me forward.
I'm going to make an attempt to pamper myself tonight.....bubble bath, facial and mindless, but funny, television before sleep.
I feel better for having gotten that off my chest.
Rae
I don't think you're just being sorry for yourself. The reality of your situation is difficult for you. I can fully understand that.
But I'm so impressed with your determination in the face of all these difficulties!
Yes, yes, keep applying for more jobs till some one says "yes"!
Lots of hugs & my best wishes to you!
Olga ~ if I could get to Australia, I would just to give you a big hug. (Well, I'd like to give Wilso a hug, too, but that's another post.)
The medical office position is not totally lost ~ my Mom reminded me that if they weren't interested in me anymore, they would have called by now. The fact that I would not have to go through another interview means to me that I am employable with them.....
But, the depression is still there. I'm getting good at convincing myself out of it, but so far, it hasn't sunk in.
It'll be better. Tomorrow is another day and I'm looking forward to it.
Everyone once in a while, we deserve to have down-time. Today is my down-time.
(((((OLGA)))))
And hugs back to you, Rae! Big ones!
Yes, of course you're "allowed" to have a down day! That's just life, as I well know. Tomorrow will be better.
I like the idea of doing a few feel good things for yourself. The bubble bath, the facial .... And of course, lots of smooches with the critters!
Be wonderful to yourself, Rae!
Rae, Even though I don't come to visit this forum often, you can rest assured that I am thinking good thoughts and best wishes for you. c.i.
Will do my best, Olga! Thanks again for all your support and kind words.
You're the best!
c.i. ~ you are in my thoughts/prayers daily. Thank you again for your support and good thoughts.
By the way.....need to hit you up for another 'party test' for the next FL gathering.....when you have time. Do you still have my email address?
Rae- (((((HUGS)))))
It is going to be all right. One day, it will just happen, and you wll have a job. And yes, you are entitled to have not only a down day, but a stinko one. It's part of this whole deal of being human.
So enjoy your bubble bath, and watch the stupidist thing that you can find. You need to laugh, girl!
Rae, Got a real good one that I'll have to fetch from our host/hostess at our last white elephant party in January. You'll have to send me your email address (by PM), because I lost most of my records when I upgraded my computer to windows XP from Me last month. Our son also changed our email address when he changed over to DSL.
Thanks, Phoenix. As we all know there are endless mindless programs on television these days ~ I'm sure to find one that will make me laugh!
(((((PHOENIX)))))
BTW, I just want to let you know that even I have down days (not frequently), and I'm retired! I guess the chemistry in our brains wants to play with us once in awhile to let us know who's boss.
Not only do I hear what you're saying, I also know that these episodes are somewhat of a protective ability to allow the brain to feel and then move on.
I'll be okay.
Rae - you're just like everyone in at least one big way - you're allowed to have good, bad and ugly days. We all get them. I can guarantee it.
We all need, and have, different ways of coping.
I like your idea of some pampering - and I'm gonna steal the idea! After I finish my yogurt snack, I'm going to go upstairs for a bit of pampering.
((((((((((( Rae )))))))))))
I hope the t.v. is full of good laughs tonight.
cicerone imposter wrote:I guess the chemistry in our brains wants to play with us once in awhile to let us know who's boss.
So THAT's what it's doing!!!
