I know exactly what's wrong with you. You're a people pleaser.
It's causing emotional and physiological strain from constantly staying quiet about what you want.
Let me tell you something. Guys aren't perceptive. Unless you tell him, he may be the sweetest guy there is,but he won't get why you're upset.
I was a people pleaser too. And a perfectionist. I had a job at Amazon, which I basically burned out of because I made myself crazy. First, I tried to make an impossible pick speed of 120 items. Then at stow, there were all these rules about where you could shelve things, so I basically became paralyzed trying to make people happy. I was losing my job, and my nerves were a mess.