On the edge and toppling off....

i stopped him from going after his father

i came off worse

he said a lot of things about his keyworker - who is pregnant - not his - but the two staff members (both female) who were with me heard every last detail of things that seem too incredible to believe, yet couldn't possibly be made up - there's now a child protection issue - R is completely f8cked up in the head, alcohol, drugs possibly, emotionally

the police were called after 2 hours - we couldnt get him to stop - we couldn't get him in the car

he was arrested when he went for me again

i can't believe i'm writing this

i just can't

i can't believe who i saw when i passed the mirror when i got in

he's safe in custody now - they have to check when he gets to the station that he is under the 150 limit - if not, he will be taken to hospital

his father did not answer the phone or come out the door - no doubt he and his girlfriend were sleeping - the light went on in the house once

none of the neighbours were - they all watched and twitched their curtains

i don't know why i'm even writing this

i had forgotten what it felt like to be a ragdoll

its all pants

bruises will go, but he'll know what he did - he cried so much

i'm shaking so badly

deep breaths, hun...

earl gray?

(((( izzie ))))

Izzie, I love you. One moment at a time. Just wish I could sit and hug and rock you hun...

Hey, Izz --

Who is with you now? Are you alone or is S there? Can you call someone to come be with you for a bit?

oh, izzie...so sorry you have to go through all that. at least it's over for now. get some rest if you can....the rest you will deal with tomorrow.

Izzie you're writing this because holding it all in will make you very sick and telling us is safe. I hope you have somebody you can trust to tell all that you can't say here.

But I can imagine what you are feeling now.

Terrible, Izzie.
Hang on.

thanku all - i needed so much for you to be here though I am sorry sorry it's now and close to your holidays season.... it tool will pass no doubt - please accept my aplogies - i cannot talk to anyone else here and Tulip is poorly and sleeping.

he has been very ill and the paramedics have seen him - he's now sleeping and will have a sore head tomorrow - nothing compared to what he will be feeling emotionally tho i think

i have spoken to the police about the things he was saying and we are going to see what report is filed regarding child protection issues by the House and follow on there. An investiagtion certainly will take place.

i simply can't believe this is going on

its totally incomprehensible

my head is spinning here

the drunk ramblings of a teenage boy - sounds like a sick book of some sort or a sopa opera - ack - i just don't know what to think and it doesn't bear thinking about

i need to switch it off somehow - have taken a sleep elixir and hope to zzzz some

tomorrow will be a long day

oh..... he will have a fine of £80 to pay, a fixed penalty or go to court. If he goes to court - he will be locked up.... kids in care, vulnerable kids itn canre - kid we are supposed to get help - unfathaomable help... and this happens... he's had final warning... cant let him be locked up tho. Wont.

i dunno... my mind is kaput.

So sorr y- I tought I was done agian with this thread. Up Up Up... shoot me down again. wont say "next " this time... Would say STOP


Noddy... will hold on tight to my waivering Dominion. WWNS - buck upi girl

Thank for listening JPB - tears have all come now - need to sleep. and colp compress.

love you x so sorry for having a downer.

Nite luv...

love you, hun.

get some sleep

xxxx

Oooh, I hope she's getting some sleep now.

What a night.

I wish I could be there to help, tho' I don't know what I would do.

((((((((( Izzie ))))))))

(((Izzie))) (I hope you managed to get some sleep.)

it's happening fast now, or slow motion - not sure which. I fell asleep at 4ish - phone calls started at 8am - R was picked up from the station and can't remember a thing - tho pieces are starting to fit together a little. He called me and wants to know what he said. I can't tell him until I know what has officially been logged - else it could be seen as tho I am putting the words in his mouth.

Ironically, received an email from the bigwigs at social services about the meetings held a few weeks ago, asking me for another meeting - 3rd Dec - day of biopsy - can't do that - emailed back saying they were obviously not aware nor had been informed of last nites incident and that they needed to contact the House before talking with me any further as the police had been notified about the child protection issues. Awaiting their response.

The manager at the House has only just arrived, has been verbally informed of what happened and what was said and is now reading the logs before he can tell me the course of action.

Child Protection policy will be instigated from what he has been told. He is now contacting Social services.

My boss was good when I said I wasn't going to work today. I can't. I couldn't explain my face.

R sounded scared about what he had said out loud. Angry that I wouldn't tell him. He doesn't remember anything about what he did. That might be for the best. He's been building up to this since his last keyworker left - last week)... he wanted to tell me a while back but said he couldn't break a confidence - it's the loyalty thing he has. He knew so much about their personal lives.... stuff he should NEVER know... I wish I knew what had happened.

hey

here all day.

I'm here too Iz...thinking of you all

I am very sorry to hear this, Izzie. I hope you are okay and stay strong. I hope Tulip feels better and can be with you. You always have friends here at A2K.

((((((((( Izzie ))))))))