Noddy24 wrote:Which is more important, your sex life or preserving your views of "male" and "female" shopping responsibilities? Another brutal question: Has the lack of sex made a difference in your all over view of the marriage? Are you happy in this marriage?
Hi Noddy,
Thanx so much for your feedback. Preserving our sex life is important but I'm a bit confused tho as to what you mean by male/female shopping resp. I take it to mean 'who looks after the contraception' - am I right? As in, who shops for the contra devices & what not?
If that's the case, then I feel the responsibility should be shared. That my husband use condoms in the interim while I'm in the process for shopping around for effective contraception that won't make me throw up or give me migraines. I want the contra implant, but it will set us back over $1K, which will take time to save up for. But I'm prepared to wait. So is he. But he just won't use condoms.
So. I'm going to just buy some and leave them on his pillow and see what happens. I am astounded that he's quite happy to just be lazy and wait for me to sort it out.
The lack of sex does not seem to have affected our marriage in a huge way, except that he is more affectionate. He seems more caring and listens to me with more attention that he did previously. I don't know if this is linked in any way to him not having sex.
My biggest fear is that he's going to look outside of our marriage for sex, seeing as he's not getting any at home. I have no evidence to base this fear on, it's just an irrational concern.
I also don't want to be in the position of feeling like I am the one to 'blame' for the lack of sex b/c I'm the one still shopping for a reliable contra method b/c he won't do anything about it. I desperately want him to share the responsibility but every time I've talked to him about it, nothing happens on his part. Or he thinks I'm 'attacking' him or being confrontational. And because of his concerns about 'how I talk to him' I've largely ended up saying nothing at all about a whole range of things.
In answer to your 2nd question, sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm not. Mostly, I'm somewhere in the middle. I feel restless much of the time, but I put that down to living in a different country, surrounded by different people, not doing the job I was built for and not having my own friends or family around me. I feel very much like a fish out of water and I expect I'll feel like that everyday until I return to my home country and my own people.
Long answer to a couple of short questions, no? lol.
Thanx for reading
jazzie