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Quote:I am 14. But don't look at that as whory. I'm really not, it was the first time I have ever done something like that. And I feel ashamed now.
The Puritans and Evolution agree that sexual contact is for making babies.
The part that the Puritans miss--and Evolution engineered--is that sex is a lot of fun.
You've done nothing to be ashamed of. The word for your emotion is chagrin. Answers.com gives this definition:
Quote:A keen feeling of mental unease, as of annoyance or embarrassment, caused by failure, disappointment, or a disconcerting event.
Your session of mutual masterbation sounds to me like more of an ordeal that a wonderful, scrap-book worthy, passionate interlude. I don't know whether you and your b/f were motivated by curiousity or by a yen to be One Up on the other kids in your age group--or even whether you and your boyfriend had the same motivation.
Sex--both good sex and disappointing sex--is usually a sweaty, messy business. If you're worried about getting pregnant--or just anxious to keep your hair out of the way--you won't enjoy mutual masterbation or any other sexual activity.
Next time--and you deserve a next time--be prepared. Your boyfriend should have condoms. You should have some way to tie your hair back out of the way. You should have guaranteed privacy.
Also, you should both be yearning and aching for intimate contact. Smacking body parts together just because everyone else
says that they are smacking body parts together is a really, really dumb idea.
High fashion and modern media dramas are built around sexual tension. This doesn't mean that you, personally, are in a state of constant sexual tension.
Getting organized about love-making isn't unromantic. Getting organized about love-making is mature. Teenagers shouldn't have babies.
Take care.