J_B wrote:Crazielady420 wrote:
Guy #1... I am suppose to go out with him this weekend, I think that is when I am going to tell him how I feel.... I am not sure if I can though...
How do you feel about #1?
I still have feelings for him, but I am pretty sure he is seeing another girl, alot more than he ever saw me... which hurt alot at first, and was the reason I gave in and went out with guy # 2.... But I have been seeing guy #1 for 6 months now... looking back at old threads when I was getting up the courage to give him my number and how far him and I have come from there.... it makes me wonder if I should say goodbye.. a part of me doesn't want to at all, but my gut says he can never give me what I want....
But at the same time I don't want to feel like I am just settling for what I can get, which isn't what I am doing, but I am still a little uneasy with the entire situation....
At first all I wanted was for guy # 1 to ask me to be his girlfriend... I wanted the relationship and all.... Now I am kinda enjoying being single... maybe it is the fact that guy # 2 seems a little clingy (alot clingy)..... and I wasn't expecting that... it was cute at first, but now I kinda feel like I can't breathe a little... and I don't want to be suffocated by someone.... which made me wonder if I truly was ready for a relationship.... but at the same time.. he is a great guy and I don't wanna miss my chance with being with him.... My friends like him, he likes my friends, I like his friends, they like me... everything clicks perfectly... he is everything I have been looking for and I think that scares the **** outta me.... not to mention I have known him for a week... his personality could up and change at any time.... and I don't wanna go through that again... I just got out of a relationship 6 months ago that started just like this one is... so all these red flags are going on in my head.... but at the same time I have to realize he is NOT my ex....
I can't compare them and automatically assume he will do the same to me, as the ex did.... it would be a risk I would have to take and I would have to completely let go of the past...
So guy # 2 keeps asking where this is going, I think he is scared he is going to loose me.... and it is starting to irritate me, why can't he just go with the flow and chill for a bit... enjoy my company and leave it at that...