Not a smoker anymore!!!!!

Thanks, soz. I still want a cigarette though.

Hence, my unsociability.

If I can live with myself 24/7 without a cigarette, I should be okay.....in a few weeks or months.....

You will!!

Okay, I'll let you be hopeful for me.

Thanks ~ you're a rock. :wink:

You're doin' fine, Rae!
Proud of you!

Thanks, Eva. I'm tryin. Your encouragement, support and thoughts mean a lot.

You're not TRYIN', sweetie...you're DOIN' it!

lol.....I might be doin it, but equally wish I weren't doing it!

A cigarette right now would make me very happy.....sorry to say.

I felt that way for months. Just stick to your guns Rae!

Thanks, littlek. I still want a smoke though.

Not gonna do it.

Someone reminded me today that it'd be stupid to start up again after all the time that has passed. That person is right.

Still doesn't change the fact that I enjoyed smoking a cigarette.

Even though I remember (and replay) Walter's words about 'being just a little bit pregnant as opposed to not being pregnant' (when compared to being a smoker or non-smoker), I stilll want to smoke.

Sometimes it happened within my now '20 plus' years of being sober that I thought/think: 'this is an opportunity where OTHERS have a drink'.

Now, I'm thinking additionally: 'This is a moment, when I usually had a smoke.'

Since I'm older than 16, I can drink beer and wine when and where I like. (And - to tell a secret: I'm even older than 18, and thus I am allowed to drink any kind of hard stuff as well.)


But I just don't want to drink (and no added smoking) any more.

However, I truely believe that I wont do such harm to others when I start smoking again than starting drinking.

And it is really much easier to stop smoking than drinking!!!

You're awesome, Walter. Thanks.

I think this calls for a party ... a really good party! No drinking, no smoking, just our own beautiful personalities blossoming forth!

Let's be ourselves, the way we were born, and cultivate it from there!

We are all beautiful, let's see how much more beautiful we can become?

Be myself, but no smoking. Hmmmm.

Very true. You are doing brilliantly.

"A cigarette is the perfect type of a perfect pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one unsatisfied. What more can one want?"

Oscar Wilde

Nice quote, Gus.

I remember thinking I couldn't quit since I used ciggies to calm me down. I was much calmer after I quit with the nicotine, though I wouldn't have believed it before.

That's so true Osso., I felt much calmer also after quitting.

I also had more energy, more incentive, and life in general was more positive and hopeful.

The benefits far outweigh any negative results, which normally is short lived.

Okay. Deep breaths.

Going to disappoint everyone. I'm so sorry.

I'm smoking again. I gave it a good fight for five weeks. But, I'm not strong enough to battle all my habits ~ smoking be the least evil of them.

Sorry, Mom. (No, I won't be smoking in the house.....ever.)

Well, Rae, it's great that you admit that openly here. (And, honestly, I can understand that better than most of the others here! :wink: )

So give me your address again and I'll send you something. You can try again later.