Borat Sister wrote:
I’m just hoping if I get it and die that I’m well sedated!
If you're on a ventilator you'd have to be sedated.
Maybe I was just ignorant, but until my husband got bad, I never realized that, unless it's because of a surgery or something, when medical people say ventilator for someone really ill, you should hear "life support" as in "you need advanced directives, someone appointed to make sure they are followed, and while you're still able to talk for yourself, hopefully decide what you want.
The hard lesson I learned was people say from the comfort of good health that they wouldn't or would want this, that or the other. But when things go south, it's not so easy to think, let alone say "If in 15 seconds I pass out and they put me on a ventilator, I'm the same as being dead." You're on life support, you're not going to wake up, you have no idea what's going on because you're unconscious from the drugs they give you to keep you knocked out.
Sorry, I'm wandering, but there is a point.
If suddenly you can't breath, you need to understand and know about the different things that sedate you.
They can and will give your morphine so that your body really doesn't care it's not getting oxygen.
Your mind will know it too, and you can imagine the anxiety.
So, you also need to get Ativan, since that will eliminate the axiety, and you can have a peaceful ending.
I knew nothing about this until just a few days before. When I realized if it wasn't for the anti anxiety meds, the end would be torture. I was horrified at that thought.
The first thing I asked when I got to the hospital after he died to the nurse who was there, was "Did he suffer? How long did it take?"
I was assured he was gone within 5 minutes, and no he didn't suffer.
My next question was "Are you just telling me this because it's what you say to everyone?"
She adamently stated that no, he really didn't suffer, but I still wonder. I still wonder. I hope he didn't but I'll never really know, or trust he didn't.
Esther Choo, to CNN’s Stelter: The truth is, the sickest patients are terrifying. They are air-hungry, dropping their oxygen, confused, distressed. We can never show that. But it is terrifying.