@the prince,
I've loved dogs since I was, maybe, four, but didn't have my own until I was about 33. I've avoided, like some of us, owning a dog since I can't reasonably take care of appropriate veterinary needs. This gnaws at some of us pet lovers. Others can't afford dog care helpers.
After Pacco died I was a mess, well annotated on a2k. But I got it, that I can't afford the possibilities put forth for another dog, hurt in the future.. Some of those are things to do are ridiculous, but I took it that I couldn't afford the lower end of all that. So, years have gone by.
Katy has a fund watching me and her, which is pretty ironic in its way, but they like her and possibly me.
o'Prince, you can find help to care for the dog. Surely. I don't know, are you never there? If not, is there someone there that genuinely likes dogs? (I don't care re his work title - do any connect to dogs?
The key is that you bond to the dog.
Katy and I bonded within seconds. Well, yeh, she and a many others.
Another name, Bondo.