@spendius,
I don't have it in me to feel this way and never will. Abuse is painful and devastating for some people and I could never see any good in it. People take their lives every single day because of of abuse (even just verbal abuse) because after dealing with being cut down daily, they eventually feel worthless, taking their own lives.
I'm far from timid and have a big ass voice which I'm not afraid to use, but you're right in saying that this is no place for the timid.
I can handle what's being dished out my way, the thing is that I just don't have any desire too. I choose not to deal with it even though I can.
I get angry and all bent out of shape when I see people abusing others and it simply has a negative effect on my life. Once I'm angry, I can't just get out of here and forget about it. I just keep on brewing and I'm just not willing to live that way anymore.
I see enough abuse in my every day world just going to work. Either I see employees abusing other employees or it's the employers who are the abusers and I jump in to make noise about that as well, which is all right close and face to face, so timid I'm far from.
On that note, even though I'm hardly timid and very much able to defend myself, along with others, I hate being in the position to have to do so and I choose to avoid being in those situations just so I can have some enjoyment in this life.
Like many of us, I've had a very hard life having to fight so very many battles that shouldn't have begun in the first place and it took up such a large part of my life where I could have been happy if not for the abusers.
I could never find anything good coming out of abuse because there is nothing good about it.
People can disagree without trying to break each other down. Some of the cruel things I see some people say to others literally makes me feel sick to my stomach, which is when I jump in to help defend this person so they won't go down a bottle of pills or jump of a bridge, then I get under attack and end up mad as hell. So here I end up sick to my stomach and rage running through my veins.
This is just not the way I choose to live anymore. If I was ever going to get any peace in my life, I had to make a difficult choice and that choice did indeed bring me more peace. It didn't come without a cost, however, because I left a lot of fabulous people behind