Rex

He's so quaint, he could emulate Gomer Pyle with no effort whatsoever. Well, shucks, we need our retro members for nostalgia.

Religion is far from truth. Christianity starts by confessing Christ Jesus and God from sin. "There is neither male nor female but all are one in Christ Jesus".

Also, I'm the "toy boy" in this relationship and my partner knows that. I may be 43 but I am the one who gets carded for cigarettes and alcohol not him. My life is pure irony.

Also, being "spiritual", I have not lived a totally reckless life. It may be genetics too but I do look younger than my partner. (lately I have been acting less adult though.) He is attractive but in a mature way. So he is not boy toy but more "friend material". I was not even attracted to him until he grew up and became masculine. I guess all that time he was admiring me though.

Considering he thinks of himself as straight I must be able to turn someone's head if I attracted him in the first place. He is 26 and never been with a man other than me. He has had several long term girl friends since I have known him. We never played around until after he left his girls. He came out to his mother about us without me even prompting him.

I must be ok between us for him to jump across the fence so willingly and to be so monogamous about it too.

So I really messed things up.

If I hold out and don't make any more mistakes this will resolve in time. I have let him know that I am being faithful now (although it is for some reason very difficult for me lately) When he feels he has teased me and punished me enough to get his pound of flesh, he will come back around.

I guess he's a jealous guy too.

I must say that what puzzles me is that he first initiated us being intimate. I followed along (willingly). But in the process the friendship which was highly abundant became almost non existent for the intimacy to come into the picture.

One day I said to him so now we are boyfriends? He said, no, we are lovers. I thought what he said was nice and that he was giving me a better place in his heart. Well he is monogamous but he treats me like I am a secret. I don't want to shout it from the rooftops but this secrecy has only cut into what was once a good friendship.

So instead of me openly being his friend, I am now secretly his lover. This make a relationship harder to stick with. Less long moments of friendship but now more brief moments of intensity and then solitude.

Though, if this was all humdrum it probably wouldn't interest me as much.

You just woke up and attempted to answer that? You're really funny and entertaining, in the aforementioned Gomer Pyle way. You're also still searching for a compliment. Don't expect it from this source (although I just got carded at a supermarket for trying to buy some Pinot Noir.)

Is it drafty with the asylum door ajar?

I wouldn't expect you to get that but I know RR is.

Don't give yourself so much credit lightwizard. You have no clue why I was making that face. But let me assure you it had nothing to do with anything you said. :wink:

You need cognitive therepy -- your confused smiley face is posted directly after my posts with no other reference to any part of the discussion. Have some coffee and maybe some ginkgo biloba -- it does work. Well, if you can remember to take ginkgo biloba, you don't need ginkgo biloba. :wink:

BTW, if your confused by RexRed, he intends to be confusing in his personal and befuddled quasi-Christianity and may drive you as nutty as he is if your mental health is not in perfect shape.

Also, I'm glad that you heard what I said. If you are reading off the Internet and hearing voices, I also suggest therepy.

Whooop there ya go again... slingin' insults. LOL I must congratulate you on your mud slinging skills. You're insults seem very well rehearsed. Do you practice them in front of the mirror?

<--- Just so there's no further confusion here... that one's for you lightwizard.

P.S. Out of respect for Mr. Rex I will not be continuing this discussion with you any further in his thread.


Sorry Rex.

Aw, I hurt her feelings. So sorry if you are that thinned skinned.

There was no mud there, just justifiable observations.

The ultimate cop-out when one knows they are wrong -- I don't want to discuss this with you. Yeah, I've used it because the person turns out to be an idiot and one can't communicate with an idiot. You are not an idiot, just misguided and obtuse.

And you obviously don't understand what respect is lightwizard. If it makes you feel better about yourself to believe you hurt my feelings and that I'm an idiot, go right ahead. Makes not a lick of difference to me because I, as well as some others here, know I would be forth right about it if you hurt my feelings, rather than just being nasty to you and attempting to attack your person, or making snide comments to my friends about you or the things you do. I'm actually grown up enough to realize I'm not in high school any more and have no need to play these little games. However, I will apologize to you because you have made it abundantly clear now exactly who's feelings are hurt here. My previous post was unnecessary and I shouldn't have instigated you further.

Your condescending and patronizing attitude is abundant on these threads. It's more difficult than that to hurt my feelings to don't bother even trying. You've already violated not communicating with me again so you words ring false. I did not say you were an idiot but it's telling that you wish to volunteer. Better read what I said again -- your cognitive skills need to be worked on, beyond your false comparison to high school games, which you are trying to play and then deny.

Thinking is selfish...

Do ya really think so? LOL

You know lightwizard you are right. I can be very condescending and patronizing at times. I can see that about myself. Especially lately. I don't mean to be and I'm definitely not trying to be. I guess we all can't be perfect eh? *shrugs*

I did re-read what you wrote a little while after I responded and I realized that actually you are right, you weren't calling me an idiot. You were in essence calling yourself an idiot if my reasons for quitting the conversation were as you supposed. (so I'm glad they weren't) However, I decided not to point that out.

Though I suppose my cognitive skills could use a little work as well. If I were out to impress anyone that is. But I'm not. I just am what I am. I'm fine with that and will make no apologies for not living up to someone elses standards for me.

If I had stated (without typos ) that I wasn't communicate with you from now on, it would mean I think of you as an idiot. I have seldom on this forum or the previous forum where many of us met ever copped-out by refusing to answer or propose an idea or statement. If you would like to interpret that as self-ridicule, I've been known to use my own character flaws and transgressions as a joke. To make a statement and then become aloof to observe is something only your imaginary god should be able to do and does well throughout the Bible. It's unbecoming in humankind.

I agree to put this little sparing contest aside and begin from here. We often write something anonymously on these forums which we would not blurt out at a cocktail party and definetely not the Sunday church meeting (not that I ever go! ). In some cases, I see things written that if stated in person, there might be an invitation to "step outside." Of course, if it was a woman, I'd just bitch slap her.

I'm glad we can put this behind us. I'm not big on church meetings myself. I don't hang out at places where you are expected to be something you aren't to "fit in". Unfortunately now a days church is one of those places you are expected to put up a front. I don't do fronts. What you see is what you get with me. Here, work, hanging out with friends. I don't say anything here I wouldn't or haven't said in real life to someone. Which is why I don't have a huge circle of friends. I would much rather have a few select friends whom I can trust, who like me for who I am flaws and all, who will tell me the truth when I'm doing something that bothers them or they think is wrong, who support me when I'm struggling, and know I will do the same for them... Then 20 friends who pretend to like who I am, the things I do, but are too afraid to tell me if they think I'm doing something wrong or that bothers them, instead just talk about me when I'm not there and who act like they would support me but go the other direction when trouble comes. I'll be a friend to anyone and show them who I really am so they know what they are getting into. I figure the rest is up to them. Take it. Leave it. It's all good.

Just kidding