Chai Tea wrote:
You're right, I don't care what you've gone through with anyone, nothing new under the sun, as they say.
Whatareya going to do about Now?
I don't think I want to talk to you any more. At least not until you've grown up a little....I'll see you in a few years.
Ok, I am going to be honest here. I am really and honestly confused. I have come on here for quite some time now and have gotten some really great advice and feedback. More recently I have been told to do something productive with my relationship and get the hell out, which is the only real thing I am holding back on. Everything else has been very helpful. I have gotten pages and pages of responses on every single one of my posts on all of the issues I have brought up telling me that I need to either stand up for myself or get the hell out.
I have had many responses telling me how I don't actually want help, that I love drama, that I want to be miserable, and so on, all things that aren't true about me. But what really gets me is that when I actually stop to think and say to you, "you know what guys? your right, I am going to do something about this right now," all I get back from you guys is laughter and ridicule. I started that thread about how I finally stood up for myself and told him straight out that how he has been treating me is wrong and all the other things you guys helped me say to him. I told him either things need to get better or I'm out the door, and how what I said actually made an impact on him. I didn't even get one response from you guys. Nothing. I was just laughed at. I seriously thought I was doing the right thing by telling him how I felt and telling everyone how well it all went but nobody seemed to care. I got more responses on how stupid that email was and how he probably didn't read it than I did on the actual thread itself.
I just don't understand what to do. I get nasty things said to me by not taking the advice and I get nasty things said to me for taking the advice...from the same people!
If I could be truthful with you for a minute. I have said in the past that I am the one that people come to for advice with their lives, I am the one that people go to when they are having a really crappy day. I am the one that people go to when they need to get away from it all. And I am the one that people have always gone to just to talk and get things off their chest. But I myself don't have anyone like that for me. My mother doesn't really understand me and I don't have very many people to turn to for advice. So I found myself here. Even though I don't know any of you personally, I find you all my friends. When I come here, I feel like I am in the only place in the world where people understand me and have gone through the same things I have.
So I guess what I am trying to say is that I look up to you guys and...I guess it just hurts a little when the harder you try to be on the same level with everyone else and feel accepted, the more you get laughed at and the less significant you feel.
