i've been trying to figure out how to contribute to this thread. the use of the word has been a puzzlement to me for most of my life.
it's use between black folks is nothing new. it isn't a phenomenon or artifact of mtv. not even a genuine hip hop or rap development. the only thing new in it's use by rappers and hoppers is that where as now it ends in a sound like "ughhhhh", back in the day, it came off more like "errrrrrrr". it's just sort of out there. some blacks use it liberally. others are driven to anger by it.
in 1973, i got into a local r&b band called "sensations". we played clubs and tons of "cabarets", which were basically a scene where a social club would rent out a local meeting hall and have long tables end to end with tons of food, drink and getting loose with a live band. generally, the jewish bass player and myself were the only white folks in the building. it was a total blast. nothing but tons o' fun and a killer musical education in blues, r&b, soul, reggae (before it was much known in the u.s.), funk and a little gospel thrown in.
at the first rehearsal, i was shocked by the way the word was getting tossed around. so i was like, "i thought you guys
hated that sh*t. what's up with that ???". that got a pretty good laff. the singer said he had a way for me to get a little more inside it and handed me an 8track by pryor; "that nigger's crazy". one of the most hilarious records i've ever heard. still listen to it once in a while. but the use of the word, "nigger", still has me wonderin'.
so i was trying to really understand it. i was talking to my friend, derrek, and i said, "say man, what's up with the "nig-gerrrrrr" thing ??". ummm, not a good scene. derrek detested the word and even more so when it was used towards him by another black person. even though we were running partners and he knew how i felt about stuff, for a second he got that look that a person gets when you've offended them to the core. it passed as quick as it appeared and we talked.
i don't remember his exact words, but in effect he said something like, "only fools that hate themselves get into that sh*t". since i had never felt that any of the bloods in the group hated themselves i asked him, "well then they must be just foolin' around. should i just get into it ? am i supposed to say it too, to kinda fit in ?" the last question really got him laughing. guess i had my answer.
fast forward 30 years.
working at a studio that specialized in the proverbial "gangsta rap". now the word was in nearly every sentence with these guys. "niggugh this", "niggugh that".
as bruce thought, after a week or so, i ceased to even notice it. or at least i thought i had.
some even used the word with me. one being coolio, who walks in and says "yo niggugh, lemme use your phone".
but there was a difference that i noticed. whereas i had always gotten a more or less good natured vibe before, the word and the way it was being directed was anything but good natured. these guys did seem to hate themselves; and everyone else too. it was a very bad scene full of racism, hate and violence.
in an interview, george harrison was trying to explain about tm. he mentioned that when repeated over and over in chant form, words lose their meaning. the word he used in example was f^%k. "just keep repeating it and it will lose all form". true enough. it will indeed lose any meaning; to
you.
to your mom ? umm, well she's still gonna melt down if she hears you. lifebouy, anyone ?
the word "nigger" does have a meaning. a quite potent meaning. it should not be used unless you care to impart that meaning.
if you use it to describe yourself or your peeps, you are taking on that stereotype.
if you, as a white, use it to describe black folks, you are taking on the stereotype that whites are saddled with.
does america
really need another 400 years to get past this stuff ? there must be other things we could be doing that are more uplifting.
i feel the same way about phrases like "blue eyes", "devil", "viking", "cracker" and that old school gem, "ofay".
all of this **** just gets in the way and slows us down.