It is not an event of you lying/pretending. It is you being a little punk $#@# B. Beyond that is extremely childish and immature. Real men are honest and full of nothing but love. Not imbeciles too afraid to be a little gay.
Dude your Wife should love you for you. Crying does not make you
any less "manly" or "masculant". The time to impress her should have
been put to rest once you and her went beyond that scale. Again
your not dating and does not make you weaker of a person, to cry
or show emotion.
The reality your wife is upset at you because you show weakness
by not being honest to her. Not only that you was being dishonest
It is like bs my father pulled on my grandmother. He went to her
homeland and he could have brought her to see her sister at least.
Because he was fearing all kinds of childish stuff because him himself
had zero faith in me and his own mother. To top it off he even lied/pretended
it did not matter where he went with his brother and kept it from me.
I assume he went to a titty bar, or lap-dance, or even associted with
escorts or whores. But again his dishonesty plays with the stupidity
he has shown my own mother when he was married to her and the person
he is with right now.
A real man is honest to the tooth and comb and his girl should be loyal
and understanding. You marry somebody is not trying to get sex from some
random girl on the street. Being honest is more important not hiding stupid
from the person you get in bed with.
Several years no children? Sounds like a sad marriage.
You can not erase things and just own up to your stupidity.
Just tell her "I did not want you to see me cry, I was embarassed.
My image to you from the first day I met you is more important then you
seeing me as a human."