Cheating with controlling man

So you want to go from an emotionally abusive relationship to a controlling relationship with a married man who tells you that things will be different once you are alone. How will it be different? Oh yeah, he will be able to screw you whenever he wants since you will be alone and he will not have to leave his family in order to get some pussy on the side. Sounds like a really sweet deal for him. For you, not so much.

If your marriage is intolerable, then end it. Take some time to get your life together. Find a single guy who will treat you like you deserve to be treated. And most importantly, walk away from the married guy. You are being used for his enjoyment. Why would you want to whore yourself out to someone like that. (I used the word whore intentionally. It is exactly what you would call a woman your husband was seeing on the side. And I would bet it is exactly what your lover's wife would call you if she finds out about you.)

You're in a marriage with an abuser and also having an affair with someone who sounds emotionally abusive.

I suggest you arrange counselling for yourself as soon as possible.

Do not continue contact with the man you're having an affair with. He sounds like he could be dangerous. He definitely sounds bad for your mental health.

Please take care of yourself.

Agreed.

Thanks for putting that in perspective ,as much as it hurts to hear that I know it's the truth and that's what I've been thinking for a while now I just needed to hear it from a total stranger thank you so much really helps me a lot, now the hard part will be not answering texts from him and getting him out of my head and heart

You can do it!
Take care of yourself.

start by blocking all numbers/contact sources he has

You can do so much better than this. Go out and find a man who thinks your #1 in his book. Never settle for being #2.

I hope you can get out of your bad marriage, get counseling for yourself so you don't get into another bad relationship. You deserve better. You're not a fool, you've been in an abusive relationship. I don't know your past or how or why you got into one but you need to get out of that first. All that relationship is doing is making you feel worse and setting up a pattern for you to continue into similar relationships. They make you feel like it's what you deserve. Please Take care of yourself, you just need to find yourself, your confidence in yourself, love yourself before getting into another relationship. Because if you can do that first you won't find yourself attracted to anyone who won't treat you as well as you deserve.