developing prematurely
I feel so angry.
They say that a person isn't a complete adult until 25.
I never wanted to mature early. It's the opposite. Maturing early means that you will reach old age sooner than you should. I don't want people to think that I am older than Jen Foley, a mean attractive girl who was born in the same year as me whom God says will steal my love interest in three years.
I want my 21 year old body back.
I have lost sleep because of this.
I used to sleep 8 hours a night, now I only sleep 4 hours.
There's this younger boy in my church that I was interested in. He is only 14 though so I decided to wait until he's 18.
I am good friends with his mother.
God said in my intuition that the boy will meet Jen Foley in three years, fall in love with her, and she'll come to my church and be mean.
She'll say that I'm ugly and and she'll say,"You're not my friend"
She'll also give the other girls at church a hard time and say, "You're all jealous. I'm better than all of you."
When she meets him in three years, she will be 24 and the boy will be 17.
What makes riles me is the fact that people will think I'm too old for the boy now that God aged my body 4 years in one moment, especially in the future when he's grown. Nobody would think I'm too old for him if God didn't age my body 4 years in one moment. I'm so furious about this!
Jen Foley was in my class in 6th grade in 1994. She also said in 1994 that she'll laugh when she sees my name in the obituaries.
Please understand that I don't want Jen Foley to outlive me. I don't want to reach menopause before her. I get offended if people think I'm older than her when we were born in the same year. Before God aged my body 4 years in one moment, nobody would think I'm older than her.
I kept praying to God that Jen Foley won't meet the boy, and I keep pleaing to him that he restores my body back to its former youthful condition, but I haven't seen any results yet. Aging the gradual way isn't a bad thing because everybody ages that way, but it's bad for God to age my body 4 years in one moment. That's unnatural and that takes 4 years off of my life. It's my time to be young, not to be mature yet. I don't want to reach old age sooner than I should! I don't want to have a body older than other folks born in the same year as me! This is all too much for me. It's difficult to live a normal life now. If I can't have the boy in the future because of Jen Foley, at least life wouldn't be so bad if God hadn't aged my body 4 years in one moment. My youth has been squandered!
I wrote a story based on my situation at fanfiction.net
Delilah isn't my real name but Delilah represents me.
A.J. isn't the real name of the boy but he represents him.
The only character in the story using the real name is Jen, but I didn't reveal her last name in the story.
The story is set three years into the future though. And something happens to Jen at the end of the story that I wish fate would bring. I don't think it will happen though...
I haven't been praying that Jen will die, (I wouldn
t mourn her if she died ofcourse) but I was praying that she wouldn't meet the boy.
Read it if you like:
http://www.fictionpress.com/read.php?storyid=1978211