Quote:Maybe I should talk to my mother about it, so that she can tell me the exact wrong thing to do, and then, like the good brainwashed little child that I am, blindly do it, and f*ck up the next year or so of my life.
I love this. Because, I said the exact same thing, just the other day. I have this situation in my life right now, and I said, "maybe I should call my mother and ask what she thinks." Of course, she's not going to have any better idea than I would as far as what to do about it -- in fact, she'll probably give me bad advice -- but I still felt compelled to call her.
Oh, why do we do that? I suppose we're still trying to please Mom. Like when we were kids, and we picked a big bunch of dandelions thinking, "she'll love these
pretty flowers. And Mom smiled and said, "thank you, they're so pretty." Even though the damn things were full of pollen and made her sneeze! All the things poor Mom has had to put up with from us! So we still want to please her.
I guess there's a trust factor there too. No one loves us like Mom does, we know she's on our side -- so we think she'll somehow have the answer, she'll know what we should do.
But the fact is, there are just some decisions we have to make for ourselves.
Sounds like you've had some good suggestions from some very smart people on this thread. Don't think I can really add anything.
The fact is, these kind of decisions are just really tough, there's no easy way to resolve them. It really has nothing to do with being an "indecisive f*ck up." It's just tough -- for anybody -- to decide what to do. Unfortunately, when you're at a crossroads like this -- there's no big sign with an arrow pointing down one path -- and the words "RIGHT ANSWER" flashing on and off like a neon sign.
Truth is, there's no one answer that is totally 100% the right one. You have some options -- and each of them have their pros and cons. The thing is -- only you can decide which is the best, which is the one that you can live with. Only you know what you need as far as income, benefits, job satisfation, etc.
So, I think you just need to spend some time this weekend -- alone -- and sort out your thoughts and feelings. You need to have a talk with yourself -- out loud if that helps -- and ---- for one brief moment --- even though it's hard ----- just put aside what your parents, siblings and friends think. Just forget what they would say, or what they think you should do. I know that's really hard. But just for a minute. Forget them. Never mind what they think. Just for a moment.
And just ask yourself......what do
you think? What do
need from your next job situation (money, benefits, job satisfaction) I'm betting that there is no option that is going to meet all of your needs 100%. So you have to think about what the
best option is, which is the one that comes closest to what you want and need. Which one can you live with? Only
you can really answer that question. Once you've decided, follow through with it. That way, whether it works out or not, you'll know that -- at the very least -- it was the decision that
you made.
Someone once said to me, "if you're not sure what the right decision is -- then you just have to
make a decision --
and then -- make it right!"
So whatever you decide, you have to give your all to it and try your best to make it work.
It's really all any of us can do.