Will do that, kicky...
When did you kick it? It took me two weeks to get to yesterday, and now I think it was good that I took my time to get angry with myself for being an addict. And yesterday I was really mad at myself for being a junkie. Now I'm not mad anymore!
I quit on January 27th. I used a couple of methods to get me through the first month, but I think the best method was that I figured out how much I was spending per week, and then I gave that amount ($50) to my friend to hold each week. The deal was that if I cheated, or started again, my buddy would keep my money. So it was like a competition, plus I had something concrete to lose if I screwed up.
Every friday I would give him another fifty bucks. After a month, the deal was over, and I got my two hundred dollars. It got me through the toughest part, and it was nice to get that chunk of money as a reward.
Plus I started sucking on Lollipops and chewing toothpicks. I have weaned myself almost completely off the lollipops now, but I'm still chewing on the toothpicks all the time. I'm still anxious and tense and restless for no reason at times, but I like not being a slave to those f*cking little death sticks.
Okay, I have rambled enough for now. Don't give in!!!