((((((Mikey))))))
I am so glad that you are here and that we can be here for you.

Happiness is not just an option we get to choose from in life....it is a god given right to seek and find.
You are one incredibly patient man and have been from day one it seems when you actually waited for 13 months just to consummate your marriage! And now having gone 8 years with nothing more than basic conversation with your wife just blows me away...
I am not unfamiliar with your situation at all, although some of the every day instances may be different. My fiance's former wife acted so very much like your own, in some of your posts, I had to make sure it wasn't him and not you. His wife literally shut down emotionally for the last 12 years (of 17) that he was married. She would not let him touch her in any way, nor would she express any loving gesture towards him. As you said, it isn't even the sexual part...it's the holding hands, cuddling at night, a sweet kiss in the morning, a gentle rub of the shoulders. HUMAN CONTACT!! Please do not let HER actions emasculate you in any way if you can help it. I can tell by your posts you are still as loving and caring and creative and smart and so longing for the love that you have always carried in your heart. Hold onto that!! It will come back to you one day, but as I said before, maybe not with her.
I don't know what your wife's medical or mental situation is, but just to share a bit of my own fiance's wife's experiences, she was diagnosed a long time ago as bi-polar, schizophrenic, paranoid and delusional. She has twice attempted suicide, has never worked a day in her life....either outside the home or in the home. He had done all of the bread winning and housekeeping for years and years and years and like your wife, she would always find fault with something..
As you pointed out, children learn what they live and they learn about relationships from their parents primarily. Good or bad. I feel your concern about your children very much and with my fiance, that was finally a big motivating factor to finally leave the relationship. He did not want his son to grow up believing that this was normal or right or even ok.
It was an incredibly hard decision for him to make, but one, that in the end, was correct for him and his son
I am thrilled that you are going to seek marital counselling, with or without her. I honestly think it will help you evaluate your relationship from an honest perspective and give you the tools and strength to make the decisions that will be right for everyone concerned. It's not about who is right or wrong, but about finding peace and happiness for you and your children. I do hope you can make it with your high school sweetheart and that given time, things will evolve into a once again true loving partnership.
You will always have us here, through the good times and the bad, we will not judge as another mentioned, but we will support you in any way that we can. You'll be amazed at how quickly we might turn into some of those friends you have never met.
You are much stronger than you may believe at this moment and my heart is with you.