Hello! I just have read your story. Well,aparently,it means that your that kind of women who always need something new in her life. That s fine. In my opinion,you don t have to be nervous. This is something you can change,but,unfortunately,not to a great extent. So,my advice for you is to break the relationship with your husband,because it is obious that this will happen,even thought you want it or not. Next,you just have to enjoy you life and live that way you want to live. This is you,you can not change that to a significant extent. Just try not to get infected or something and enjoy life...You can have how many parteners you want. I hope my answer will help you. Bye!