I must have read it different, my apologies, "his other children" not "our other children".
"No he does not compliment me...very seldom. Couldn't tell you when the last time was before all this happened. He jokes around some. I compliment him all the time and he gets sex anytime he wants and anyway he wants - so i doubt sex is the problem.
No, I haven't always loved him. We seperated about 9 yrs ago. Our marriage was terrible and he treated me terrible and was very aggressive and angry all the time and put me down all the time. I had an affair and told him to leave. We had counseling...and he did anger management. After several months, he moved back in and we tried to rebuild the marriage - dating and such.
Ask yourself seriously whether you are the one lost...You didn't always love him now you want to believe him and not anyone's response to "help" you think it through, you see it as attacking you...
You didn't love him, you had an affair I think you are trying to make up for all of that by "loving him" in your eyes, yet this person has had to go to anger management yes, and your replies are "angry" as well so I suspect you have some too..
Bottom line, is I think you were'nt happy, you are trying to be happy, you believe in the word Marriage and in all of that, plus kids, you are trying to convince yourself that he is your all...
This woman cried? Emailed you 50 , 60 times? Supposidly lied? About what?
Go away and think why? If I had nothing to hide, I'd tell you where to go, not email you 50,60 times and cry..