@goldamber,
Quote:In Germany, I wasn't even aware that I was growing up around racist people until I came here and thought "wow, black people work at the bank here? you have black news reporters? awesome!" it was amazing and awakening for me, to see what type of environment I had been living in all along.
Could it be that Germany just doesn't have that many black people who speak the language well enough to be news reporters or having gone into
a banking profession? Being born and raised in Germany myself, I think
you are exaggerating quite a bit. Of course there are racists in every country, Germany too, but it certainly isn't a nation where you have to grow up around racist people.
As for the old lady, she probably senses that you're watching her and
it might make her feel uncomfortable. The way you're describing her eye movements and her demeanor means that you are looking at her more
attentive than she's accustomed to. Perhaps she's afraid of you.