Freudian symbolism Void as follows (forgive pun)
i walked down a road to a place where my family was gather at to eat mashed potatoes.
Road, life; family, the rest of us; potato, mashed in a sense of hopelessness but white as desire for redemption
i eat, then left to walk further down the road going the wrong way look down the road to see traffic 1 red car 1 blue car headed my way.
Reviewing my sins I see red, blood, oozing from a blue, wretched, body
then Velma Dinkley and the mystery mobile pull up to giv me a ride down the road....
Seeing oneself as intelligent but awkward soul helps review past
skip to destination... i was calling some one on a pay phone then a scruffy black person …... he was bad news) so i acted like i was getting a gun out of my pants.
Revealing suppressed desire to engage in extramarital sex. The gun of course represents his instrument and the pay phone expectation of retribution
he left and came back with a gun and shot out the tires of my car and pointed the gun in my face.... yes my car just magically appeared.
Representing degradation of your body if not its soul
then anothe black person walked up took the gun away
Feelings of guilt about black man representing something sexual
and stole a cement poorer,
Wish for more substantial basis to life
whil loading it up cops came and i pointed at the person with the gun when his back was turned....
A sense it cannot be achieved, that black thoughts arise spontaneously, that they're not under one's conscious control